I want to start by assuring you that I am not going to hurt myself.
I've been with H for 15 years. I'm not particularly happy in the relationship. It's hard to leave because he isn't a bad guy. I go through a list of what he doesn't do. He doesn't drink, gamble, take drugs, womanise ect. Also, I have little kids so I prioritise their needs. Any how, recently I've been having intrusive thoughts about killing myself and self harming. I'm pretty sure I have OCD. I do a lot of checking, things like taps, plugs, the front door. I don't think anything bad is going happen it's just a compulsion. I've also had intrusive thoughts for a long time. They are just more persistent. Is anyone else going through this?