So long story short and need guidance and no judgement. I have been suicidal so please be kind.
I have bi polar (recently diagnosed) and during a manic episode I stole a large amount of money from work. I handed myself into the police for this and have faced everything since. I of course lost my job, my friends and family. As well as reputation. The only people by myside is my partner and 15 year old daughter. Both who I’ve been honest with and know I’ve made a mistake. I am due to be sentenced at crown court at the end of Sept which could be custodial.
Unfortunately and probably expected the friendship group have excluded me, but not my partner. From weddings, events, wiped me from their lives. They haven’t asked me directly what has happened or know about my bipolar. There going on what they heard. I cannot leave the house, I am deeply ashamed, I live in hell not knowing if my mind will kill me this week. My question is this.
If I don’t get custodial will I ever live this down. Every where I go people know my mistake, friends don’t want to know me, I’m scared to go out. Would you move towns and start a fresh, end your relationship and support your daughter best you can (currently joint custody due to mental health). Will this ever be any different or will I constantly be judged. I cannot live like this.