Today I have a car parked in the drive, money to spend, the weather isn't that bad and what have I done with the DDs absolutely nothing.
I was going to take them down the park for a bit and wimped out of it as it would mean about a 15 minute drive. I'm still terrified of driving and have been driving nearly every day for 2 years plus. I only drive in the mornings when it's quieter and to places I know. I was getting better but my anxiety has returned big time since getting pregnant and I keep thinking either I am going to hit someone or someone will hit me, it's so bloody stupid I know.
I feel so sorry for the DDs I should be taking them out more but I can't face going outside sometimes. I have spent the afternoon in tears on the sofa watching TV with them.
I have loads of other issues going on in my head with being pregnant, having SPD/SI pain, no help and the two of them to look after.
Sorry it's just a pointless self obsessed rant I know I need to get my finger out and get out more but I feel i just cant.