I can't leave my relationship. I can't go to the council because they'll put me miles away from anyone I know and I won't be able to work and my kids won't be able to go to school and I won't be able to continue with my university which is to try and better myself. I can't get anyone to help me. I am suicidal and there is no way out, I'm trapped in this relationship and I'm terrified. I feel sick I can't stay here because its killing me but I can't leave because I have nowhere to go and it's going to destroy my life and more importantly my childrens lives even more.
I can't ring the crisis team because last time I spoke to them they told me to be grateful to him. Which makes me think he's right and it's all me in which case my children are better off without me anyway. I am overreacting. I do over react to everything. I am too sensitive and other people go through 10000000x worse and I should be able to deal with this. My mum says he's not that bad. But I can't. I don't want to do it anymore, I'm desperate. I've contacted womens aid, I've contacted shelter, I've contacted the council. I have nowhere to turn and I'm scared.