I’ve got cptsd from my childhood and I’m feeling suicidal. I’ve got 2 children which is stopping me from doing anything but I feel awful all the time but I just want to to stop. I just want to feel ok but feel so lonely. My husband didn’t understand and he has his own mental health problems so he can’t see how much he’s struggling.
I don’t know where to up from here as for the past 20 years I’ve gone from feeling ok and managing to feeling awful and not being able to cope to have no one else to turn to. I have a stressful job in the nhs but can’t take time off as I’m bank, and I don’t know what to do as a really want to die.
I feel like everyone would be better off without me, and I’m letting my children down