Just wish I was dead

[Iwanttogo]

I've been feeling so low recently. I want to kill myself so badly.

Im just useless. I'm a useless wife, unless mum, useless human being.

I don't think anyone would even know I was gone. My husband knows I feel like this but he's also got to help take care of our son.

He keeps saying I'm a good mum and he just wants me to be OK. But I know he's lieing. I know he also thinks I'm useless

Sorry to hear your husbands step mum isn't interested.

I honestly don't think working from home and looking after a baby is sustainable. It's clearly having an effect on your mental heal. That's great that you got a good review but your mental health is the one that's taking the hit.
Once baby is walking it will be even more difficult.

Have you looked into using a childminder...they tend to be a bit cheaper than a nursery.