I don't want to live anymore. I hate my job so much that I don't want to live another day doing it. It sounds stupid and dramatic but that's how I feel.
No one cares though. No one can help me. Can't give up though because we need the money.
I have a great husband and lovely kids but they deserve more than me. More than someone who's miserable and wants to end things.
I'm too scared to actually try and kill myself though incase it doesn't work and I survive.
Just so depressed. I actually think I'm fucking cracking up.