Dp and I had unprotected sex only once; I wasn’t using contraception. To our shock we managed to get pregnant
He took the news initially very badly saying he didn’t want a baby. We discussed it for a few weeks and he didn’t change his mind. Due to my own reasons I didn’t feel like I could raise a baby on my own at the time and we went ahead with a scheduled abortion
A few days before he said he changed his mind. I was completely convinced that he was only saying that because he knew how badly I was taking the idea of an abortion.
I went ahead anyway because I believed that’s what he wanted and that I couldn’t cope on my own. I asked him how he felt at the scan and he didn’t say he wanted to keep it just that it was up to me
He has now told me he did change his mind and wasn’t saying he wanted to keep it just to appease me
I feel like I’ve made a massive mistake and feel like life isn’t worth living anymore because of this