That's it really. The only link I clicked was the samaritans. I read an interesting quote. Suicidal people usually don't want to die, they just don't want to live their life. This is so true for me. I can't carry on like this.
Just reading a couple of threads on here for advice and it seems everyone else has some trauma in their past. I don't, but still feel the same.
Actually I'd like to get ill, seriously ill. I don't like the thought of the fall out suicide would bring.
I can't do anything about it all though. At work so can't ring GP or a helpline. Also mobile phone signal here isn't the best. I'd only get cut off. All I can do is write this thread.
Any words of wisdom for me? What will make me feel better?