I feel like I’m loosing my mind
I’m in a deep dark place with suicidal thoughts. I’m numb and exhausted.
My husband knows all this and there’s ALOT of reasons why I feel like way which is too much to go in to right now.
Last week our toddler was unwell, had seen gp but said to my husband that I was going to take him to a and e if he got worse, he agreed but still went to the football and got drunk. I ended up in a and e with our baby. Husband knew this and stayed in the pub.
He’s been out Thursday night, cricket all day yesterday and football again today. All involving a decent amount of alcohol.
I told him today I was having a bad day and not coping well. Still went to the match but instead of coming home to his wife he’s out in the pub with all the boys.
I don’t think he cares so much for me.
I can’t keep having the same conversations, it’s too difficult for me at the moment. I’m feel like I’m going crazy. AIBU to feel annoyed??