Anyone awake??

[Strugglingalone]

I’m really struggling, it’s come on so suddenly today, I was fine this morning and by late afternoon the thoughts to overdose were overwhelming

I just need to talk to someone, I don’t really care about what, I am home alone and my head is winning right now, I’m struggling to fight this

@Martianworld

Python meat?!

Meat for your python?

Or python for you?

Python meat for me! Though I do keep pythons too (live ones :) ) I have a chest freezer full of rats/mice/chicks for the various reptiles I keep. I love trying new food and it was my birthday last week, so my oh went on an exotic meat specialist website and ordered me crocodile, horse, squirrel and python. Python is the first food I’ve ever turned down. I’ve had croc before and love it. Horse was just like cheap steak. I messed up the squirrel, I tried to make squirrel stew in the slow cooker but put FAR too much salt in

Everything seems so much more difficult at night, doesn’t it? Please know you’re not alone

I know what it’s like to have overwhelming thoughts, I felt like an alien had taken me over and it was scary.

I’m sorry you feel like this. Can you put the radio on quietly on a talking channel, might that help? A hot drink and a material that feels nice. Do you have a garden?

@LtDansleg. Oh heck. I wasn't anxious til I read your post. OMG, you didn't eat Lt Dan's leg as well, did you?

Not sure if it will help, but I am in the same place. I haven't slept properly in close to 3 weeks and nothing really gives me a lot of joy at the moment. Everytime I think I am coming out of it, something else hits me.

I am alright tonight and we have lots in place when I get like this, but I just wanted to say I am here and I understand.

Also so trying python meat

🐍 Just.... no!

Hope you managed to sleep, OP.

How are you feeling today OP?

Hi, how are you feeling today xx

I’m struggling, can’t get hold of mh team, no one cares

What happens when you ring @Strugglingalone is it just an answerphone or no answer. Could you manage A and E if the urges become severe? Am sorry I wish I knew you in real life.

That’s rubbish - can you leave a message or text?
Do you want to chat now?

I’ve tried leaving messages, just had a make receptionist land me in tears (significant as the team know I struggle with makes)

Just feel like I’m wasting everyone’s time

How u doing op? X