Anyone awake??

[Strugglingalone]

I’m really struggling, it’s come on so suddenly today, I was fine this morning and by late afternoon the thoughts to overdose were overwhelming

I just need to talk to someone, I don’t really care about what, I am home alone and my head is winning right now, I’m struggling to fight this

People care @strugglingalone, you're not on your own. Any podcasts or Reddit rabbit holes you can disappear into? Also, I find tiktok is great for wiling the time away

Hi op, i'm normally around at this time of night, don't sleep well at all. I just potter around, have been known to do housework at 3am, noone pays any attention, they're used to it.

Can't sleep either... mind is going round and round.

It really isnt a lot of pressure for me. I know it feels that way to you. We are all here to help in whatever little ways we can. That old saying of a trouble shared is a trouble halved is actually quite true. You can choose. Its in your control.

I’m working on next term’s undergraduate lectures. I always seem to work better at night! It’s when the racing thoughts can be put to work.

Have you tried writing things down somewhere? Here or on paper?

I’d love to learn more about you. What is your favourite colour? What’s the best time of year, in your view?

@Strugglingalone hi how are you doing today, am so sorry the support service was so awful! Am glad you had mumsnetters who stayed awake longer than I did.

@MyDcAreMarvel struggling, trying to keep busy but the thoughts are strong still

Am sorry , are you with the crisis team or anything? Are you able to get out the house even for a little while for a walk to have some distraction.
I used to watch mr bean as a teen to distract myself I found the comedy easy to watch as I didn’t really need to think.
It seems like if you are on medication it’s not working very well I know it’s really hard to get GP’s apps at the moment but you are a priority.

@MyDcAreMarvel haha nope, getting under the crisis team is harder than winning the lottery here! Can’t even get a phone call back from my usual mh services

I am not allowed out as tested positive for covid last week so that’s adding to the struggle a bit more :-(

Been battling meds not working for 12 years, I seem to be on the best conbo I ever have but it’s still not great :-/

Really struggling again, the thoughts are racing, couldn’t get hold of anyone today

I want to overdose, I want to make this end, I’m sorry

Hey How are you feeling covid-wise? Do you think it may have worsened your mood? Having to stay in and self-iso is really tough but there is an end in sight with that.

Maybe when you can get out and walk and listen to music it could really help

Covid wise I’m now back to normal but I do think this has exacerbated my thoughts at the moment
Really struggling, I need to make this stop

Sorry to hear you are struggling, I’m up and can talk.
Real life friends is there anyone you can reach out to?

Hi @Strugglingalone
I can’t sleep either. So we can keep eachother company for a bit. Stupidly had a nap this afternoon so I’m wide awake.
So sorry you’re feeling shit. I’ve struggled with crippling anxiety in the past so I can relate to you x

@FiloPasty there aren’t really any, not truly and not who I can trust to talk to about this

@Underdown thanks 😊 oh no! I think that’s partly my problem, there were workmen outside my flat putting up scaffolding that was so noisy and made me really anxious so I tried to hide from it to block it out

What’s the strangest thing you’ve ever had in your fridge?

I’m a pro at hiding from things that I don’t want to deal with.
@LtDansleg strangest thing in my fridge was a poop sample to take to the GP. It was triple bagged in a plastic box, I should add!

Haha I was also going to say 💩

The joys of anxiety causing all sorts of problems :-(

@Underdown

I’m a pro at hiding from things that I don’t want to deal with. *@LtDansleg* strangest thing in my fridge was a poop sample to take to the GP. It was triple bagged in a plastic box, I should add!

I’ve just found my oh’s very smelly gym shoe in mine! My oh is working away and I certainly didn’t put it in there, but all of the children are denying any knowledge of it. Last week I had a box of python meat which my oh sent me, I couldn’t bring myself to cook it so allowed it to go off and then threw it away 🤢 I think you beat me with the triple bagged poo though 🤣

Have you got any pets op?

Python meat?! Snake?? Jesus wept. You win. I’d rather have a shit in the fridge!

Python meat?!

Meat for your python?

Or python for you?

@Strugglingalone
Sorry you're going through this. I've gone through a firm of how you're feeling. I didn't want my life to carry on but I didn't want to die. I just didn't want to be me, in my life, anymore.

Can I ask you what you think is driving your feelings at the moment or is that too personal? Or maybe you just don't want to discuss it. In which case, just ignore me. Hugs to you, though.

I’m here too