Hi all
I want to say thank you so much everyone for continuing to check up on me, it honestly takes me back that so many women on mumsnet have been incredibly so kind to me. 
I have posted twice of a update and unfortunately my post have been deleted by mumsnetHQ so not sure if I had said something I wasn't suppose to..
But without saying too much to risk my post being deleted again.. I am still in hospital - trying to talk lots to the nurse letting them no how I'm feeling..
My mums says I'm moving forward but sometimes it doesn't feel like that though..
I saw my 3 boys yesterday my youngest who turns 2 15th April is talking so much it fills my heart with so much joy.. I can go home for a few hours on his birthday and my birthday (16th april) I will be 28 and although I'd hope I wouldn't be here on my birthday it is something I can go home for a bit...
I'm being reminded that this process can take some times and may not help my situation and that we may need to try a different tablets...
The most important thing is my family, they have been incredible supportive and continue to reinsure me (and you ladies) that I am safe and I will get better..
I hope everyone is having a good day today.
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