Voluntary admit psych wards tomorrow morning...

[Appleandmangojuice]

I'm scared...

Nervous...

I'm not well....

What should I expect...?

They said I had hypomania with psychotic features. I didn't sleep without hardcore sleeping pills and I was quite active. When I finally started lithium I was fine after two weeks.

When people have psychosis they often see, hear and believe things other people don’t. Those things can seem more real than anything else, more vivid, more present, more believable.
Does this sound like what you’re experiencing OP? If so, it’s worth considering that the aliens and spiders are symptoms. The blue tablet, lorazepam, won’t stop the symptoms but it’s there to try to make the thoughts of aliens (and the sight of the clouds and spiders) less scary and overwhelming while the doctors and nurses take a couple more days to assess what’s going on for you.
If they decide it’s psychosis and it’s not getting better on it’s own they’ll offer you treatment to help. The treatment may take 2-6 weeks to start working, but bear with it. You need to get well.
The people who tell you you’re there to keep yourself and your children safe are right: sometimes people experiencing the things you are experiencing get very scared, panic and hurt themselves or others. This can be deliberate or by accident (such as cutting themselves or others smashing a window to escape from what they believe is happening). Please try to keep yourself safe and let staff know what you’re planning to do so they can help keep you safe too.

My friend was having horrible intrusive thoughts like this. She believed that she'd caused the accidents you see on the news. She was having the most awful thoughts that she couldn't stop seeing or thinking about.

She got the right medication and she doesn't experience any of that anymore. She has bipolar and had a psychotic episode. She also wasn't in for that long. Don't worry that you'll be there forever. I'm sure you'll be feeling better soon.

I'm really sorry you haven't been given the right tablets. It must be really upsetting and scary.

Sending you xx

If you can think back to a time when you were well, you'll remember having bad dreams. Psychosis is like a bad dream, but you're awake. It's distressing to be stuck in a bad dream, and of course when you wake up, you realise that none of it was real. It was just a bad dream.
That's a bit like where you are stuck now. They need to stop the hallucinations with antipsychotic medication. When they get that sorted, you'll realise that you were hallucinating the whole time and you won't have to worry about what's real and what's not as you'll know for sure.

@Howmanysleepsnow - Yes that is exactly me everyone keeps telling me I'm safe and what I see is not there but I can DEFIANTLY SEE IT!! The aliens, the black shadows the hairy black spider!!

@ismiseeire Yes Yes I feel like living dream!! Them the voices came while ago maybe 1-2 years ago they were nice to me comforting make me feel great but when I felt low they turned nasty like a running commentary everything I do and say that right there with there snarky comments.. I have had boughts of highs and low moods and have had the voices all throughout these times seeing things aswell....

Everyone keep telling me I'm not well but they just don't understand the seriousness of the aliens and what they have done to me, they have changed me they have put a tracker in my brain through my ear, they are watching me through my TV controlling me everything.

I wanted to build a machine to hide me and my family inside our house so we can live in peace I no the formula and everything but I just don't have the money to buy materials!

I'm so God Dame tired
Why won't God help me!

I am so glad others have posted to reassure you op but sorry that you are still so scared and worried. Please just keep being brave, let the staff help you and soon you will start to understand that what you are experiencing is not real but a symptom of your illness think of it as your brain playing tricks on you. You write very clearly what you feel is happening to you but have you told the staff or let them read your posts as the more information they have to assess you the better they can help you. I do hope you sleep well tonight. God bless you.

I know that you can see the spiders and the aliens but they're not actually there, so try not to be scared - while your brain and mind can see them, much like your brain can see things in dreams, they're still not there. Can you ask to see a doctor urgently? I so feel for you. It must be horribly frightening.

It sounds like you can definitely see these things because your brain is telling you that they are there. Your brain is telling you these things because you are unwell, not because your eyes are seeing them.
Some of the symptoms of psychosis are seeing, hearing and believing things that are not real. Antipsychotic medication would help you focus more on the things that are real and less on these other things that are so distressing at the moment, and could eventually help you stop seeing, hearing and believing them.
When do you next see your consultant? Ask him if he could prescribe an antipsychotic to help these terrifying experiences stop.
You’re obviously a strong person to have agreed to go in to hospital. Accept the help they offer and get yourself well again. It won’t always be this way

I feel so sad for you not being given antipsychotics yet. It must be very scary. All I can tell you is that those things are not there and that this will end.

One of the girls on the ward said that girl [name redacted by MNHQ] she has schizophrenic...

Do I have schizophrenic?
I don't feel unwell and I no everyone is saying its not real but I can hear and see these things, in so confused.

Just keep telling the staff everything you are seeing and hearing.

Maybe, maybe not. It’s possibly to early for the doctors to diagnose. It definitely sounds like you’re ill though. There are different sorts of illness. With the ones that affect the mind rather than the body you are less likely to feel unwell, though it is possible to have physical symptoms too. It’s more likely that you’d feel scared/ stressed/ worried/ upset. Getting the mental illness treated will help you feel better in those ways, if that makes sense?

The scary things you see and hear will go away once they get you on the right medication- I know that doesn't seem possible but it really will help.

Hi OP, I had a psychotic episode last summer and I got better, so it is very possible. You need to listen to your doctors and accept the medication you are given.
Psychosis is not an illness in itself, it's a signal that something else is wrong - not every psychosis means a psychotic illness.
As PP said, one day you will get better and you will see that it was like a bad dream. I laugh now at my psychosis though when I was in the middle of it it was very, very scary.
Good luck.

Hi op I hope you have had a better day today and that you get a good nights sleep.

Try and ignore what other patients are saying about you. Remember, they are ill too.
It could be a few weeks until you get a diagnosis. The staff need to get to know you better and observe your behaviour. I really hope you get to see a psychiatrist soon and get started on some medication to help with your psychosis.... it sounds so frightening.

Thinking of you OP. I hope you had a good sleep.

How are you feeling op?
Hope you managed to get some
sleep?

Thinking of you

How are you OP? I hope things are getting a little bit better for you. Have you seen your psychiatrist yet?

Hope you’re ok OP.

Psychosis is common. Some people have 1 episode, take a course of antipsychotic medication and get well. Schizophrenia is only one cause of psychosis and quite rare, especially if this is your first episode of psychosis.

Some causes of psychosis (with hallucinations and delusions): a stressful event or massive emotional shock can trigger it. Hormone changes like after childbirth or menopause. Certain types of depression eg psychotic depression. Bipolar affective disorder. Reaction to certain recreational substances or sudden withdrawal from substances including alcohol or prescribed painkillers.

All the above causes of psychosis are very treatable. You could make a full recovery and never have another psychotic episode. Even if you do relapse, there are medications that can prevent further psychosis.

Please listen to the hospital staff and take the meds they give you. They want the best for you. They want to help you get rid of the scary hallucinations and fear and be happy again.

Don’t try to break out through the window or fire escape like you said above, because a) it’s very hard to do without injuring yourself or others and b) if you succeed you’re very vulnerable alone out there suffering psychosis, so the police will bring you back and staff may have to put you in a more secure unit.

You were admitted as Informal but they can change that to a Section 2 to keep you safe.

I hope you're coping ok OP x

How are you doing today op? Hope you are feeling better and getting the help you need. Hope Hikeforwards post explained things for you.

Hi all

Its been a few days!!

I just wanted to firstly say thank you to everyone who took the time out of there life to leave me a comment, I appreciate every single one of them!

I keep saying to everyone that I have been here for weeks when will I be able to go home, and I'm reminded it has been 9 days since I have been here in the hospital.. which is pretty strange..

Everything is still more of less up in the air at the moment, I do have a sense of inkling that something is not right with me...

I have been sectioned 2 unfortunately whilst originally coming in voluntarly... I more of less lost control because everyone kept telling me I am fine when I'm basically i am not. Giving me some tablet that was basically doing nothing for me.

Lots and lots of confusion and I'm still more of less confused.

Lots of conversations with a lot of people..

I do believe today I saw a doctor, nurse, psychiatrist and social worker today to give me a section 2 from a 72hour section...

In a nut shell i will be giving small doses of aripiprazole in these coming days and continue to have talks about everything...

I have been Informed what I'm experiencing is more than just anxiety and that at this point I have a mental illness they just can't tell me anything yet because apparently I am still psychotic.. and it will not register.

I'm finding it difficult repeating the same thing over and over again...

I still feel like I'm dreaming.

I really miss my boys!

I couldn't resist but Google what aripiprazole is used for by NHS and its used apparently for schizophrenia..

OMG... WTF!!! HOLY SHIT!!

They will try different medications to see what you respond to - it doesn't necessarily mean that is your diagnosis. Are you feeling any better at all? Have the hallucinations stopped? Are you early 20's?