I’m having some kind of mental health crisis. I’m dissociating. I feel like I’m in a nightmare. DS came up behind me and bit me whilst I was chopping up his tea and I didn’t even notice that I still had the knife in my hand when I was trying to get him off. It’s only because FH noticed that I didn’t accidentally stab him. DH shouted at me as well he should have. How could I be so fucking stupid and inattentive? I had a panic attack. I want to hurt myself. I’m clearly not coping. What the fuck is wrong with me?!?