Hi,
I'm really really struggling with my mental health at the moment and I don't know what to do. I have struggled with depression and anxiety for a number of years now, taken antiDs etc. I stopped taking mine a while ago now due to not being able to sleep whilst on them (I know I shouldn't have but they were not working anyway)
Every single day I do not want to wake up. It's such a struggle to drag myself out of bed, to just sit on the sofa most of the day. I feel so so guilty for my DD because I feel so bad I can't even get the motivation to entertain her most of the time so it's just films and YouTube. I know this makes me a bad mum but I literally cannot find any motivation, feel exhausted constantly and the only thing I look forward to is our long afternoon nap.
My partner is working from home but is obviously no help as he's working 8-5 everyday. I'm still working but literally cannot face it, I get to work and just want to burst out into tears and leave. I feel so guilty for my LO she deserves better than this. The thought of having to play with her is a chore. I don't want to feel like this anymore. My thoughts have been coming increasingly dark.
I haven't spoken to my partner about all of this because our relationship is not great and we do not speak. In my eyes speaking to him at the moment is not an option. Friends and family know I'm depressed as I've spoken to them briefly, I'm not sure they know how bad it is.
All I want to do is stay in bed all day everyday.
I really need some help I don't know what to do ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️