I can't function

[p3achnation]

Hi,

I'm really really struggling with my mental health at the moment and I don't know what to do. I have struggled with depression and anxiety for a number of years now, taken antiDs etc. I stopped taking mine a while ago now due to not being able to sleep whilst on them (I know I shouldn't have but they were not working anyway)

Every single day I do not want to wake up. It's such a struggle to drag myself out of bed, to just sit on the sofa most of the day. I feel so so guilty for my DD because I feel so bad I can't even get the motivation to entertain her most of the time so it's just films and YouTube. I know this makes me a bad mum but I literally cannot find any motivation, feel exhausted constantly and the only thing I look forward to is our long afternoon nap.

My partner is working from home but is obviously no help as he's working 8-5 everyday. I'm still working but literally cannot face it, I get to work and just want to burst out into tears and leave. I feel so guilty for my LO she deserves better than this. The thought of having to play with her is a chore. I don't want to feel like this anymore. My thoughts have been coming increasingly dark.

I haven't spoken to my partner about all of this because our relationship is not great and we do not speak. In my eyes speaking to him at the moment is not an option. Friends and family know I'm depressed as I've spoken to them briefly, I'm not sure they know how bad it is.

All I want to do is stay in bed all day everyday.

I really need some help I don't know what to do ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️

Do you just want to talk OP? I’m here if you do. I’m sure you’re already aware of all the helplines and ringing the go etc.

Gp

I would say to inform your gp that you’ve stopped taking them due to the side effects. They could prescribe something else

Don't know what to say, but wanted you to know that you are not alone, and to send strength and love to you. X

Thanks for the replies. I just don't want to feel like this anymore I don't know what to do

Talk to us @p3achnation how do you feel, what can we do to help?

To be honest I don't know, I'm not sure how I feel myself or if there's if anything anyone can do to help. I feel guilty for my daughter that I feel this way & the way I parent is being affected, I don't care about anything else. X

You have a daughter, how old is she?

She's 3

Do you take her out for a walk, social distancing is easy outside. But also maybe a quick call to your gp about tablets not working?

I do try, the past week we haven't really though because I've felt so bad. I'm going to give them a call on Monday to see what they suggest. I can't see a way out of this 😟😟

Hello OP, we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

We hope you don't mind, but when these threads are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources. You can also go to the Samaritans website, or email them on [email protected]. Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek RL help and support as well.

We also like to remind everyone that, although we're awed daily by the astonishing support our members give each other through life's trickier twists and turns, we'd always caution anyone never to give more of themselves to another poster, emotionally or financially, than they can afford to spare.

Could you make a plan to walk with your daughter every day? No pressure to change anything else. Leave both of your clothes out ready the night before, then a leisurely morning walk with your daughter around the local park in the morning. If you have outdoor space, then a picnic on a blanket at lunchtime where you can lie in the sun and she plays. These are hard times. Realistically you won't feel better until you sort your meds out. Children are resilient.