Hey all
Im turning into a real panicky person (dont even know if thats a word) An ex got in touch out of the blue sending a card to my ds whos 5, luckily i got to the card first so my ds hasnt seen it, but this ex forced my DS to call him daddy and mentally abused us for 2 years.
Now I am turning into a neurotic mother with both my boys, for eg, this afternoon I got back from coffee morning opened the windows to let air in. Made the beds and sat down to feed the baby. I heard a noise coming from Ds's bedroom and I ended up in such a state, crying, shaking, sobbing DS isnt even here! He was at school, turns out we have a bird stuck in our wall, but my reaction wasnt normal was it?
Im worried about how far things coould go, Im constantly poking both my boys in the night, if i hear the slightest thing in the middle of the night I wont go back to sleep no matter how tired I am, Im wearing myself out and dont know what to do. Ive recently been put on citlopram since baby was 5 weeks old (hes now 12 weeks) Feel like Im losing the plit completely!!