I have a detailed exit plan and although I don't intend to carry it out at the minute it gives me reassurance while at the same time worrying me.
I am 2 weeks in to restarting 50mg of sertraline and I am thinking this is making my suicide ideation worse.
I have a doctors app in around 10 days to check on the meds but I am not sure how I get through until then.
I am married and we are currently going to relate as I feel my DP does not listen. I have described my exit plan to him but he just said that he couldn't help.
I posted here around a year ago for advice on my depression and the suggestions I got pulled me through so I am pleading now for any ways I can cope - should I up my dose/ stop taking/ start buying the necessary equipment for my plan to reassure me?
What would you do/ what have you done in this situation? I don't have anyone irl I can talk to. I work full time and my management know I am suffering (I broke down in tears on Mon morning but then just got on with it).
Sorry if this is not an appropriate topic to post.