Exit plan

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I have a detailed exit plan and although I don't intend to carry it out at the minute it gives me reassurance while at the same time worrying me.
I am 2 weeks in to restarting 50mg of sertraline and I am thinking this is making my suicide ideation worse.
I have a doctors app in around 10 days to check on the meds but I am not sure how I get through until then.
I am married and we are currently going to relate as I feel my DP does not listen. I have described my exit plan to him but he just said that he couldn't help.
I posted here around a year ago for advice on my depression and the suggestions I got pulled me through so I am pleading now for any ways I can cope - should I up my dose/ stop taking/ start buying the necessary equipment for my plan to reassure me?
What would you do/ what have you done in this situation? I don't have anyone irl I can talk to. I work full time and my management know I am suffering (I broke down in tears on Mon morning but then just got on with it).
Sorry if this is not an appropriate topic to post.

Sorry - this should've posted in mental health - don't know how to move it - will give up,

I have reported your post and asked for it to moved as you asked .
I don’t have any advice for you but you sound so sad , I hope life improves for you.

If you are feeling worse go back to the GP urgently it could just be the meds...

Go back to your post and write down all the tactics that got you through last time and put them in place.

Also you can feel worse during therapy as it dredges up so many thoughts and feelings

Hello OP, we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

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We are going to move this thread to the Mental Health section for you shortly

Talk to a doctor - of you can't see your gp phone 111 and tell them. It probably is the meds and they will hopefully settle down soon.
Check your local area - is there a support phone line? Doesn't have to be nhs in fact the charity ones ime are better. Or look on the mind website.
Samaritans can be ok but they just listen and you may need someone to interact with.
Hope you feel better soon.
I would try and hold off buying the stuff for your plan for as long as you can.

Thanks for your replies, much appreciated that you have taken the time.
6cats, thank you for your straight answer to hold off - I am so tempted to be organised thinking it will reassure me knowing I can have an end but I think you are right because it could start to move things along.
I know suicide ideation is not so unusual - I just need to hope it will pass soon.