I tried to kill myself and now I don't know how I should be feeling.

[NumbNelly]

I think I just need to be told how to feel because I'm struggling. I feel numb but so alive at the same time.
When I'm alone fat hot tears roll out of my eyes and I can't stop it.
I don't know what's normal anymore.

I doubt that there is a right way to feel. I'm sure others with more experience or advice will be a long soon. But just wanted to let you know that you are not alone. I do understand that feeling of not knowing what is normal. It's horrible if it helps, keep posting

I don't think there is a 'textbook' way to feel. You poor thing, do you have someone to talk to IRL?

Echoing gamerchick, do you have support?

I have the follow up GP appointment from being discharged next week. My friend and family and partner have been good.
Just when I get alone I get in my own head. I've got so much stuff I could be doing but I'm sitting in bed again

There is no rush though. All those things will be done

Rusty i feel like I need the distraction. I feel like my house will be nice if I do them. But I just can't

Is there anything else you can do as a distraction? I quite like playing silly games on my iPad or phone as a distraction if I am stressed or tired. I also am enjoying listening to podcasts as a nice distraction.

I used to self harm to get rid of this feeling but I don't want to get into that mind frame again

Best not to love, are you on your own right now? If so, can anyone keep you company?

For me I didn't feel anything for ages. I cried, a lot. But it wasn't real feeling. It just was? I would just sit there and cry and not know why. I have more idea now, but it's very personal to me.

Damn the housework, I just distracted with podcasts, books and films. Non fiction, like documentaries and autobiography stuff was good for me. I couldn't face chic lit or rom coms, way too jolly. We are all different.

Sit in bed, distract, distract, distract. Talk on here, we can all chat. None of us have the same story but we are a group who know what it was like (is like) for us.

Hugs (sod it if it's not MN etiquette) xx

Rusty I'm on my own. Everyone I rely on is busy right now. This rarely happens.
I started housework but my heart wasn't in it. So I'm back in bed. Thank you for all the advice. I just want this all to be over

Well there are lots of people here if you need to talk. It may sound cheesy but I have had a lot of support on here when I have been going through a tough time. Plus I have sleep problems so I tend to be awake at crazy times so happy to post back if it helps

NumbNelly Keep posting on here if you can. I agree with RustyPaperclip - I have also had a lot of support here on MN when I have been through difficult patches. There are usually a few people on MN who are awake at any one time who will post back.

I even started a thread about this type of thing, where you might find some support if you want to be with other people.

Other than that, distract, distract, distract, and call the Samaritans or another helpline if you need a voice on the other end of the line. Kudos to you for staying away from self-harm as a coping strategy if you are able to. I try to stay away from the negative coping strategies and tried out lots and lots of other ones until I found ones that worked for me. If you need to just hang on in there to your GP appointment, do you have any plans between now and then?

Oh love
I know what you mean about feeling a lot of things but also numb. That's normal.
Do you need medical attention? I'm not asking what you tried to do, although if you want to tell us go ahead, but I wouldn't want you to have any long-term consequences.
When is your GP appointment? If you feel unsafe before then, you can make an urgent appointment or go to A&E.
Keep talking x

My appointment is tomorrow. I overdosed and I'm still feeling the affects but they were happy to discharge me

How are you feeling today?

Rusty a little better but still run down. I'm in the doctors now and I don't even know what to say. Doesn't help they've made the appointment with a doctor I've never met before.

Oh love, I can imagine that might be difficult. Do you have a doctor you can open up to? Can you request to see him/her? I saw a new doctor last year when I was going through a tough time with with anxiety. I was so worried about talking to a doctor about it that I took my mum in with me! I was 29 I now trust him and find it easy to chat to him about how I am feeling. Please keep posting if it helps you, but don't worry if not. Just wanted to check how you are feeling

How are you numb? Did the doctor help? I just wanted to say hi, we're here.

The doctor wasn't that helpful really.
Had a massive blowout with DP and now I'm feeling crappy again

user me and DP don't live together thankfully

Numb sending

How are you now a few hours later?

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Peace and Love

Completely understandable Olivia - it's good to be part of such a caring community.
Erina i'm feeling better than I did this morning. I've over eaten everything I could get my hands on and watched a load of my favourite films