i think my whole life is a mistake.
There was a point years ago when I should have just ended things. Now I have two children and I am shite at this. I should never have tried to be a proper person. I'm crap at it. Everything is a struggle. I get through one bit of horrendousness and the next starts. My husband thinks I'm horrible. We argue all the time. I feel like I should just leave my younger child with him leave my older one with his dad and just go away somewhere and go back to not trying to engage with the world. I hate myself. I hate my life and I can't do it any more.