I want to run away

[Havehadit]

i think my whole life is a mistake.

There was a point years ago when I should have just ended things. Now I have two children and I am shite at this. I should never have tried to be a proper person. I'm crap at it. Everything is a struggle. I get through one bit of horrendousness and the next starts. My husband thinks I'm horrible. We argue all the time. I feel like I should just leave my younger child with him leave my older one with his dad and just go away somewhere and go back to not trying to engage with the world. I hate myself. I hate my life and I can't do it any more.

I'm sorry to hear you are finding things so hard at the moment. Have you spoken to your husband about how you are feeling?

You sound very low. As well as your husband, have you seen your GP?

I'm sorry you feel so rubbish at the moment. Is there a friend you can talk to in real life? Sounds like you need to let some of this stuff out...

I don't believe you're as bad as you think you are...!

Has anything just happened to make you feel as bad as this?

Why do you say your husband thinks you're horrible?

You really don't come across as horrible at all, but very defeated and depressed.

None of us are perfect, not as parents or partners. But you are still so important, particularly to your children.

Hi Havehadit

We have moved this to Mental Health now where it will be seen by others who can hopefully offer you some support and advice with what you are going through.

We wish you all the best.
MNHQ

Have you spoken to any professionals? Im sorry you are feeling like this. I'm having some similar thoughts at the moment too. Really struggeling to cope. Life is very hard.

You sound like you may have depression.Have you seen a GP in the last few days?
Am thinking about you.