I have PND and i had to come off of my last tablets as i had horrific side effects, I am now on new tablets to try. I feel like an experiment to see how my body will react to the tablets as opposed to recieving help.
My HV came round AFTER 7 MONTHS OF ME ASKING and told me that i was looking after my baby wrong and that i should do something about my PND (I had already gone to the GP and just started taking my anti-depressants) She told me things that i need to change so i changed EVERYTHING i done EVERYTHING she wanted me too and it wasnt an easy ride, I had an unhappy baby because his routine was completely changed. She said she would come and see me in 2 weeks, 2 WEEKS AGO! I rang and said i was expecting a visit and the HV's said that they would get back to me I HAVE HEARD NOTHING.
I cant stop eating! I am 21 stone and 22 years old. I WANT to change but i seriously cant stop eating!
I have no friends and i do not want to go to baby groups (which i dont know anything about anyway as the HV said that she would get the childrens centre to ring me and tell me where it is and what times i should come as i am new to the area) as i have panick attacks when i go out as i am sure people are judging me. I went out for the first time twice a day to the park last week and there was a group of women (About 10) sitting with there babies whilst i was in a corner on my own, I felt VERY panicky so i walked home after 30 minutes.
There is no point in me being here! No-one would miss me because i dont see anyone anyway, My DH shows no interest in sex and when i ring my family to talk they say "I dont want to talk for long"
So what is the point?
Ive tryed to get help, The HV said "You need to get out if you have PND" I explained that i had panick attacks when i did and she said "You cant think about yourself you need to get out with your DS without making excuses for yourself"
Is PND not a big deal? Obvious i was mistaken when i thought that it was.
There is nothing to live for anymore.