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Mental health

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i need help

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maddie04 · 27/01/2011 00:56

i dont know what to do when i feel like this everyhing is to much it would be so easy to go quietly everyone sleeping upstairs i need help :(

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coldtits · 27/01/2011 01:11

Go and wake someone up. NOW.

GiddyGertie · 27/01/2011 01:15

If you feel desperately bad then you should consider ringing the Samaritans on 08457 90 90 90. There will be somebody there who will be able to talk with you. You say that there are other people in the house with you. Is there someone you could wake to be with you?

ElephantsAndMiasmas · 27/01/2011 01:30

Maddie! Are you still here? first thing to remember is that no matter what you think about how people would be better off without you, they WOULDN'T. And losing someone in this way blights people's lives, especially children's lives, forever.

Call the Samaritians, they are lovely (my nan was one) and will listen to you whatever you want to say. Or call anyone. Wake up the people in your house. You don't need to be alone.

YeahBut · 27/01/2011 01:35

Ring your GP's emergency number or go to A&E and request emergency psychiatric help.
You don't have to feel this way.
There is help out there and on here.
Please try to make a call or wake someone up and ask them to do it. Ring Samaritans and ask them to help.
With the right help and support, you can feel so much better and have the life you want back.

GiddyGertie · 27/01/2011 01:41

Hoping that you have found some help in RL now. These bad feelings will pass. Thinking of you.

SuckerForPunishment · 27/01/2011 02:04

You asked for help on here, that's a really good sign, it means you haven't lost hope. Now please phone someone too. They wont mind one bit. I lost a family member at the weekend and all I can think is why the hell didn't she try to tell someone how she felt. God knows what she thought but we would have been there for her. Sadly we didnt have the chance.

Please phone someone now.

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maddie04 · 27/01/2011 09:19

thank you for your replys i havent been to sleep all night i just hate feeling lke this i feel embarrassed dont know how im going to get through today i just want to sleep, my hv is coming out today but i just fee like cancelling i feel like cancelling the world

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ElephantsAndMiasmas · 27/01/2011 09:43

Are you on anti-depressants maddie? So glad you're still here :)

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maddie04 · 27/01/2011 09:54

yes im on 60mg of fluoxetine and i am seeing a cpn every week but i just feel so awful i havent got anyone to talk to

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ElephantsAndMiasmas · 27/01/2011 12:24

Have you got family nearby? How old are your children? What about friends? Other mothers you know?

I went through some horrible depression last year (although not quite as bad as yours by the sounds of it) and thought no-one could help. But in fact they can help, it's the depression lying to you that makes you think you're all alone.

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maddie04 · 28/01/2011 11:20

yes i have family near by but none of my family know whats going on because i havent told them even though im sure they can see that there is something wrong with me, not very supportive really!!!!! I have just been pushing my friends away really too difficult to deal with any one..........
My children are all very young my oldest is 5 and youngest is 5 months (i have 4) its soo hard.

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IAmReallyFabNow · 28/01/2011 11:29

If you had a headache you would take a pill. having depression is another illness like any other and taking medication for it is sensible not something to be ashamed about. A lot of people don't understand depression but that is their ignorance and not your problem. You might feel rubbish about having to talk to someone but by telling them you have the chance to get well. Doing nothing is just going to make things worse for you.

I have had depression for more than half my life and will be on medication for ever. I don't care what people think. I just like being able to manage my children better and to be able to try and be a better wife and mother.

Talk to your HV. She is there to help and if she doesn't, see someone else.

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maddie04 · 29/01/2011 10:45

I am seeing a cpn but i even find it hard to speak to her just cant seem to open up, but she came out yesterday and could see i was really bad and suggested hospital, which i dont want to do.
i just dont want this anymore and i get frightened because i have so many bad thoughts x

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NanaNina · 29/01/2011 19:33

MADDIE - why are you against going into hospital. Don't think your CPN would have suggested this were it not necessary. Your children would be cared for - by relatives, partner, or if not temporary foster care and NO suggestion that they would not be returned to you when you are better.

I have suffered 2 major episodes of depression and each time have been in hospital for 3 months (last one last year) it just means that all the pressure is taken off you and you have time to recuperate.

Depression is very very scarey as is any mental illness but trying to battle it with 4 children under 5 sounds impossible to me. Could it be PND as your youngest is only 5 months.

Please think again about an admission, although you would have to be assessed by a psychiatrist. You need to get better as soon as you can and taking the pressure off you might do just that.

And please tell your family how bad you are - they might be more supportive than you realise.

snowmash · 29/01/2011 19:59

It's also a lot easier to go into hospital voluntarily, and they wouldn't suggest going unless they felt it would help.

ImFab · 29/01/2011 21:07

If you can't say what is wrong, write it down. You need to let people help you and give you a chance to get well.

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maddie04 · 29/01/2011 21:09

I think part of me would really just like to go into hospital to get away from everything including my children, and i know that sounds bad, but its just everything else that goes with it.
What if i go in and im really unhappy, then what do i do.
When all this goes round in my head this is when i think it would be better or easier to not be here x x

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maddie04 · 29/01/2011 21:10

Also cant tell my family they really wouldnt understand at all!!!!!!!!!!!!

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ImFab · 29/01/2011 21:12

Please let them help you.

I have been really ill, but now I am on meds and feel a lot better. I still have issues but some of those can't be sorted with tablets and I accept that.

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maddie04 · 29/01/2011 21:41

Thank you ImFab just dont know what to do cpn is coming out again on monday i hate this.

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ImFab · 29/01/2011 21:43

So start fighting it. If it doesn't work, you have tried. If it works, then happy days.

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maddie04 · 29/01/2011 21:50

easier said than done

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ImFab · 29/01/2011 21:52

I know it is. I have been where you are. I have posted and got upset at posts telling me to see a doctor but I know I am better on the drugs after I was honest with the GP. I did it for my kids as they deserved a better mum and I did it for me as I deserve to be happy. So do you.

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maddie04 · 29/01/2011 22:00

I know im sorry if i sounded cheeky thank you for all your support

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ImFab · 29/01/2011 22:01

You didn't sound cheeky. You sounded desperate, just like I have been.

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