Is anyone’s mental heath struggling?

[Louise26x]

I can’t believe how bad my anxiety and depression has been these last two weeks. I don’t think Iv ever been so ill mentally. Iv had some dark thoughts about not being here anymore.

I just can’t see an end. A much wanted and waited for holiday is going to have to be cancelled in July and I’m gutted. Then I feel so much guilt feeling gutted.

I just feel so out of control with it all 😩

Yep, I don’t want to wake up in the mornings

Yes. I’m definitely starting to struggle.

Yes. I've just stopped caring about everything. I'd just got into a place where I was a proper functioning person again following 2 years of therapy, we were planning our first holiday abroad as a family and things were looking good.

Now I'm right back where I started. Can't get away from dh and the kids. Can't be bothered eating or getting dressed. Don't want to do anything. Just want them all to fuck off and leave me alone. Can't sleep. Was still awake at 5.30 am this morning and then ds got up at 7am. My Grandmother died at the start of this, couldn't go to her funeral. Don't like video calls because I can see myself. Our house isn't fit for purpose, in terms of layout and our garden is rubbish for young kids (terraces, lots of stone/concrete, no grass). Not sure how much I can take.

I am really struggling. I know this is not helpful but you aren’t alone.

Yes. I’m taking it One day at a time here.
My OCD - which I work so hard to control - has come back severely.
There’s lots of online help it seems but I’ve yet to get the motivation to actually watch/join anything.

It's hit me like a ton of bricks and generally I don't struggle with my mental health very much (I know how lucky I am with that).

I can't sleep, I can't eat, I can't concentrate on anything so struggle for distractions.

I get irrationally angry at people suggesting lockdown should be stricter. I know they're suggesting it because they think that it will resolve things more quickly and keep people safer from the virus, so it comes from a good place, but still...

Yep - panic attacks, agoraphobia and nightmares back again. Thank you, CPTSD, you're the gift that keeps giving.

My sleeping's screwed. I've not left my flat for weeks. My appetite has also buggered off - double bad because I'm meant to take insulin twice a day before meals and meds with lunch. If I'm not eating I can't take them.
My blood sugar levels are stupid right now and that's adding to general anxiety.

I've had a phone referral made to our gp's mental health support person, but don't know what it's going to involve or when it will happen.

Unmumsnetty hug to everyone else having a tough time x

Massively struggling I take anti depressants anyways and I feel like they are just not helping me at all right now. I have 0 motivation I eat everything in sight out of boredom I cannot be arsed with my dh or dcs I wish also that they'd just leave me alone. Actually thought about lying to have to self isolate just so I can be alone. My sleeping pattern is fucked and I haven't worn proper clothes I.e jeans etc for going on 3 weeks. Iv been out shopping about 3 times and my anxiety goes through the roof.
I'm so fed up

I've (thankfully) never suffered from mental health problems and yes, I can feel myself start to flounder.

I mentioned to a colleague (keyworker) that my chest hurt, thinking covid. He told me what I described was anxiety and he experienced the same. That knocked me for six.

It’s awful isn’t it. I have bpd and came so far in the last 2 years. Started working! Now it’s all gone to pot. I feel like I might Aswell not be on any tablets.

I rang the doctors today.. he told me to go for a run to make me feel better.

I’m majorly overweight 😑

Yes. Suffer badly from anxiety. I'm on lots of meds for it. Was starting to cope and then was rushed to hospital over the weekend. I am now sure I will have caught it and will die and leave my children. Terrified

Yep very much struggling. to all

Yeah I'm struggling now. My OCD was under control and it's worsening but depression is creeping in too.
Feeling frustrated.

I've been getting intrusive thoughts again. They sort of ebb and flow, but on bad days I start to really freak out. This whole scenario kind of echoes something I was very worried about a few years ago when I was in a mixed manic episode and a bit of me is terrified that that wasn't my being mad, like everyone said, but I was right and this is all on me.

When I'm not in that place, I get really scared that I'm becoming unwell again and my poor DH and DS will be stuck in the house with me in this state.

I've had some very serious thoughts about when I should get myself out of the picture permanently, but am sort of holding on right now. Psychiatrist and CPN have been lovely and given me extra meds and some solid advice for how to manage things, but every couple of days now I have someone shout on me at social media for doing something I've been instructed to do to keep well, because they think the rules forbid it. That usually sends me into a really bad spin. I couldn't sleep until 6 am this morning because I had so many rushing thoughts in my brain.

I just want it all to stop.

@batvixen123 don't worry, your doctor/nurse wouldn't have told you to do something if its breaking the rules. What is it you're doing? Also, maybe come off social media for a bit? Its toxic. I really notice the difference in my mood when I deactivate it.

Doctor told me to go for a run twice a day - once in the morning and once at night. He said that the rules specifically allow for medical requirements and has sent me a letter to carry in case the police stop me.

He's been trying to get me to follow a routine as close as possible to my usual one, because historically, turmoil tends to be a major mania trigger for me. No one in my actual neighbourhood seems to have noticed - I just run along the dirt track directly behind my house and no one is normally there except me - but I've had people yell at me a lot online. I have had a couple of people yell at me for going outside at all, because they think I should be doing YouTube exercise or something.

I’m pleased you have a letter. You’re doing nothing wrong!

Yes but not because of the virus

Schizophrenia and bipolar here. Paranoia so rampant I may have a relapse. I have a shielding letter and I'm becoming convinced it's like handing a pirate a black mark, that it means if I phone emergency services they arnt going to come. That it's a big conspiracy to kill of those with health conditions or who are old. Completely paranoid and doesn't help that for once my conspiracy paranoia could be right. I'm getting more paranoid by the day.

Waiting on jet2/hays to ring me to cancel my holiday it was booked for 13th June. I'm gutted it was our first family holiday of 4. Just nothing to look forward to and can't plan anything to look forward to !

Yep. Had a breakdown last week, gp signed me off for a month and I've started antidepressants. That's what happens when you're stuck in a flat with a toddler and no outside space trying to work and parent at the same time.
Can't wait for this to be over. I'm greatful the medication has kicked in so I can rationalise my thoughts easier and know there will be an end.

Yes I'm struggling. No mental health issues in the past but can't see the point of getting up to count down the hours to going back to bed. Diet is rubbish, sleep is rubbish. Keep thinking of my mum (died 7 years ago) and my sister (sudden death nearly 3 years ago). I'm reliving the past when I was young (no rose-tinted glasses though) and I'm very weepy all the time. If we had a date to work to I could probably cope better. I look round at cleaning that needs doing and just think, what's the point only to do it all again next week. I'm showering so haven't completely lost the plot. Go out for a walk each day but can't chat, have a coffee or browse shops so walks are getting shorter. 10 more hours before I can go back to bed. (And yes, I know I'm lucky but OP did ask if anyone was struggling)

@Theodoreb - much much sympathies. It's so hard, isn't it, when stuff starts happening that makes it difficult to tell between the paranoia speaking and what is actually going on?

@batvixen123 at least someone understands I hate paranoia by far worst bit about my illness as when I'm paranoid I'm in pain but too paranoid to ask for help.

@Theodoreb - I get you. Sometimes I used to call up the crisis team but refuse to give my name. At least that let me get some stuff out of my system and build up to giving my name and asking for help. Now that isn't possible. I can only call the CMHT and request a call back and I've never been able to do that while unwell. I feel so very adrift right now.