Is anyone’s mental heath struggling?

[Louise26x]

I can’t believe how bad my anxiety and depression has been these last two weeks. I don’t think Iv ever been so ill mentally. Iv had some dark thoughts about not being here anymore.

I just can’t see an end. A much wanted and waited for holiday is going to have to be cancelled in July and I’m gutted. Then I feel so much guilt feeling gutted.

I just feel so out of control with it all 😩

It's the pits but I'm not beating myself up. Noticed Monday's are my worst days. I don't plan anything so anything is an achievement. Toddler is planted in front of screen most of the day. Tuesday I usually get my shit together cause I feel guilty. Manage to do some arts & crafts etc. Feels like I'm just existing. Recently started jogging with toddler. He loves it, I chase him on his bike. Then I feel guilty because it's for my benefit and I get frustrated I can't just go. Eating loads of shit out of pure anxiety. Spending waaay to much time online makes me miserable yet here I am

In February I finished 8 weeks of cbt for my ocd and I had made good progress with it. Now it's creeping back and I'm starting to really struggle with it. My anxiety is getting really bad because of it. I keep thinking is all this happening because I did not do my ocd rituals :(

Yes. Was already dealing with severe PND and now I'm stuck in the house with my 2 DC. Doctor has told me to exercise twice a day as part of my safety plan but despite him giving me a letter I'm finding it really hard to put the "stay indoors - save lives" out of my head. Why should I try to save my life by going out twice a day if I'm killing other people by doing so? And I'm self-harming for the first time in 15 years.

Just wish they were able to tell us roughly when it's going to be lifted - if it's a matter of weeks then I can start counting down, if it's months then I feel I might as well just give up now because the chances of surviving it are minimal anyway.

@batvixen123 that's such a shame as I can see why that would, I used to text the samiritaNo but lost the number and won't speak on phone in case my children hear. If I want to get help have to call up to speak to on duty officer and I don't like that idea as it's not my psychiatrist if you understand me.

Hey, I'm joining in if nobody minds. I have PND and only started medication about 4 weeks before lockdown. My CBT has been paused and I feel like I'm losing it. I was starting to feel a bit better but then all this happened and I feel like I'm slipping back down a hill.

I know exactly what you mean Forthe I could probably manage a few more weeks although I'd hardly be at my best but if this is for months then I really don't see how I'll manage.

What are you taking for the pnd? I'm on venaflaxine 75mg but I'm going to ring up and ask for something else or higher dose. Been on the 4 years, cbt didn't help me unfortunately. But also being stuck in with 3yo and 8mth old is crippling me I cried all day today didn't even go outdoors didn't get the kids dressed. I'm losing the will x