So sorry to hear that @EllieWales what a stressful situation!
Also sorry you’re struggling @justbelieve TTC is such a mental game, it totally consumes your every thought. I remember when we were trying for my daughter I had pretty much stopped measuring time in calendar weeks and months and instead my life was measured in: AF arrived, CD1, count down until I start OPK testings, test, test, test, got a peak, great, sex sex sex, peak gone, now count down TWW, pregnancy test, AF arrived, CD1, repeat. It was really hard and after finding that so hard the first time we decided this time around trying for number 2 we were going to leave all of the tests etc and I have to say it’s made such a big difference for me mentally. I know roughly when I ovulate and we’re still obviously making effort to have sex at the right time but it has been much better for my mental health to not be waking up every day and taking my temperature, ovulation tests etc x