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[Amy95]

Hello ladies I'm officially on my two week wait 🙌 it's my first time tracking this month so I'm all new to this ..... Me and my partner have been trying now for about 2 years on and off , but this month we've decided to track and jist go for it ... I'm more positive this time around so if you would like to keep me company your welcome x

Yeah it will be nice to all be together. I thought I was going to be there on my own! My appointment for starting again is Fri 23rd June, which will be the 2 weeks pre ovulation, will you be alligned then @Amy95 @LeopardLover @dabs9? would mean ovulation estimated round 7/8 July?

today just been into our village for a coffee and cake 🍰 this afternoon house admin as we have friends over from USA on Thurs for a weeding we’re going away for next weekend so pottering. Best weekend. Oh an having a big massive aperol spritz later! How about you? Hope the PP aren’t bad. Xx

I’m with the ‘fuck off may!’ Mentality and just enjoy the next few weeks taking it easy, relaxing and back on being psycho wives in 2/3 weeks time 😂

are you guys doing anything today? Xx

100%. It wasn’t good being in that horrid anxious ‘unknown’ phase. Add to that a bunch of weird injection hormones and I’m glad to have not injected yesterday! It defo does up my anxiety around the 2 weeks injecting leading to ovulation.

oh god I hate it when they do that. Or say ‘you’re only young’ and in like yeah in medical world I’m only young, but I’m 34 and I want multiple and don’t want to be the granny at the nursery! Did you get your results or not?

yeah body’s are so messed up. What I did learn yesterday is that some months Pcos plays nicely and allows you to be semi normal. Other times it’s a dick nd theirs no rhyme or reason why it acts up. Sounds like you’re similar! Hope you’re having a nice day. Xx

No AF. Due today, tested yday - BFN so just waiting for her to arrive I guess 🤷🏻‍♀️ although I’m still not out and still getting egg white CM so confused as it shouldn’t be like that?

@GeoSmed that's the thing isn't it.. when you know you're in your 30s and want multiple children and it's already taken you years and counting for number 1, you feel you don't have that much time to play with lol. If we're lucky enough to ever get pregnant I think I'll start making IVF plans for #2 immediately after giving birth 😂😂

Just had a look on our fertility clinic website. Couple of weeks back the waiting list for IVF was 16 weeks from referral being received.. it's now 20. I'm dreading that number going up and up between now and September.
I know that's still fairly short in comparison to other places but it feels so mean to make you wait even longer when it's already been years!

Currently laying on the sofa and been snoozing lol. I'll probs be here all day. OH is away camping and hiking for the weekend.
Looking up holidays for end of the year and I think I've now decided I want to go to Japan.
Have you ever been? Or @LeopardLover ? I feel like one of the 2 of you may have 😂 xx

@GeoSmed I'll be partying while you're at that appointment then! I think I'm going to ovulate on 19th June, hopefully... Before Glasto 😅

P.S Coffee and cake sounds lush! How cool you have friends from the US visiting 😍

Yeah that’s it isn’t it? That’s why I’m team twins 😂 what clinic is it that you went to / looked at? Mine has no wait list. Like our referral is sat with them waiting for when we’re ready and when I want to start this each month it’s like yeh can you come in tomorrow. Might be worth looking - they’re all over the country.

Awww sounds lush! Is it nice weather there? Where are you again? And that is one manly weekend!!
my husband is doing equally manly things. FA cup final on tv, f1 on the iPad and golf on his phone. While building a lawnmower 😂

no unfortunately not. We were meant to go for our honeymoon but cuz of covid, we had to go to one country and stay there, rather than move around like we had planned in Japan, Singapore etc. and ended up going to Mauritius. But we are going to rebook it and go again at some point. Xx

@GeoSmed twins all the way! 🤞
Ours will be NHS funded so unfortunately have to jump through their hoops.
I would 100% look at paying privately but my husband isn't at that point yet.. he wants to wait a bit longer to see if it happens naturally, and of course like a true Scotsman wants to save his money if he can! 😂 we're in Aberdeen.

Jeez that's too many manly things going on at once!! Hope he's got his top off building that lawnmower to at least give you some eye candy! Hahaha.

Uh how annoying! But Mauritius sounds amazing! I went once as a kid but I don't really remember it. My bestie just went and it looked incredible!!
We had planned to go to South America and travel around countries for our honeymoon but due to covid couldn't 😣 and ended up going to Sri Lanka instead. Xx

@dabs9 @GeoSmed I haven't been to Japan but would LOVE to!! I have been to Singapore a couple of times which is lovely but obviously not Japan 😅

Have never been to Mauritius but used to work for them a tiny bit (agency life) so I know it looks awesome! Sri Lanka looks beautiful too I'd be going for the blue whales 😍

Hoping you don't have to wait too long to get through those NHS loops! I also feel the pressure of having multiple kids you know, I never wanted to rule out 3 but I think nature will do that for me 😅 unless twins. Imagine going for #3 and getting twins LOL.

You never know!! I've also had lots of EWCM which drove me wild but the Internet says it could go either way 😅 however, my dill period pains are undeniable. They aren't the stabby early pregnancy ones! It could be you implanted on 12DPO? 🤔

@LeopardLover Got a negative today. Couldn't see any line at all. I got the small cheapies so will try again tomorrow morning. Wish my period would start so we can move on to the next cycle!

Not sure about Aberdeen, but for us in Nottingham, they outsource IVF to private clinics. They do iui, ovulation induction and tablets in the nhs hospital, but give ivf to private clinics. Ours we use is one of them so we’re on the private clinic timelines. Might be worth finding out?

Haha he has his man untd shirt on u fortunately. and is already angry as they conceded in 20 seconds 😂🙈 fun day for meeeeee.

honestly it’s unreal. I’ll send you a pic. It’s the most wonderful place. And the Mauritian and Indian people that live and work there are some of the nicest people I’ve ever met. If you can go, defo do! Oh nice. We almost went to Sri Lanka last year but ended up Kenya / zanzibar. Was it nice? Xx

@GeoSmed Arh now I want to go on holiday! Pics look amazing 😍 we loved Sri Lanka but wasn't as boujie as I would've liked for honeymoon lol.

Our NHS clinic does everything including IVF. I don't even know of any private clinics that would do IVF closeby.. have only really looked into self funded via the NHS clinic. I'll need to look into that incase we do decide on private eventually.
I'm originally from Sheffield so not so far from Nottingham 💕

@LeopardLover don't even joke.. that's what happened to my parents! Went for number 3 and ended up getting an extra one hahahhaha xx

Hey @dabs9 im also in Scotland but in Perthshire. There is only one private clinic in Scotland and it’s in Glasgow so quite a way from Aberdeen. Tbh I think the nhs board here is a bit of a mess for fertility stuff, our local hospital is Dundee and they didn’t have capacity to do a sperm analysis and wanted us to go to Aberdeen, which is a long way to go for my husband to wank into a cup. We ended up getting it done in Glasgow privately as it’s nearer. Hopefully Aberdeen is a bit better than Dundee (seems it) but these things are such a lottery really

Hi @Annapolis35 I can't actually believe there's only 1 private clinic in the whole of Scotland! 🤯 that's crazy! I bet their waiting list is even longer than the NHS ones.
Did Dundee not have capacity at all?
That did tickle me a bit tho.. can't imagine driving hours just to have a wank and hand over the result 🫣
So far Aberdeen has been ok for what we've needed to this point but will have to see how the rest of our journey goes.

What is your situation if you don't mind me asking? I'm so sorry, I'm sure you've already sent it but I can't keep up 😅 how long have you been ttc? Is this number 1?

And in response to your spotting question.. I have spotting every month before my period starts but I don't count it as AF until I get full flow.. whether that's right or not I don't know 🤷‍♀️ x

Aw no problems there’s so many people with lots of histories. Yeah it’s mad there’s only 1! We haven’t got very far yet with fertility stuff. So our story is we’ve been trying since Jan 2022, caught in Feb but miscarried in April last year and not caught since so just got the ball rolling with nhs tests which have been mostly through gp and private. Dundee didn’t have capacity for sperm analysis but our gp did one more blood test and said they’d refer us as I am 35. So I’ll see how that goes but I imagine it’ll all take a while.

thank you for spotting advice! I’ve never known what to do and it’s all so conflicting online.

And yes ttc no. 1 and quite a miserable journey so far and I am a bit numb to it all… like I can’t be arsed to think about it anymore? A bit more “what will be will be” and I’m just fed up of feeling sad about it. How about yourself?

Oh sorry you had a BFN. 😔 I feel the same. I'm back to period pains, expecting AF in the night! Maybe we'll both be CD1 by morning! X

@Annapolis35 i'm so sorry about your miscarriage. It's so frustrating that it happened so quickly but then not again since!
Glad you've managed to get your fertility referral.. when did that get sent? I think up here there's about a 12-16week wait for initial appointment, hopefully it's no longer than that for you.

We also started Jan 22 trying for #1. We've never had a bfp but did get an early referral to fertility due to irregular bleeding and uterine biopsies I've had before.
Husbands SA came back 1% morphology but otherwise we've been told tests have been normal. Just waiting for a review in September which is when fertility clinic have said they'll refer for NHS funded IVF.

I totally get what you mean about feeling can't be arsed. I do feel like that but then the obsessive part of me can't help but piss on sticks every 2 mins!! 😂 but it's all consuming and I spend the pre ovulation stage sad and annoyed because it's taking so long and the post ovulation stage feeling sad and annoyed because I know it's probs another failed month.. there's no let up. I'd love to just switch off from it all but I really don't know how. Tips welcome!

@dabs thanks, it is so annoying it hasn’t happened since! But also equally annoying to have not a hint of a bfp since Jan last year for you. The whole thing is just dispiriting really. Soo all our tests have come back normal too, I’m just waiting on day 3 test results and the gp is gonna send off a referral hopefully very soon. The only thing it’s come back with is a high amh level for me which may indicate poly cystic ovaries (but not syndrome)… I do ovulate every month and have fairly regular cycles though.

ooh ok a review in September, and the appointment time doesn’t seem too long. I am not holding my breath, I am expecting this is all gonna take a while.

Haha pissing on sticks! That made me chuckle. I don’t really have any tips I’m afraid! I’ve been trying my hardest not to think about it really, especially in 2ww and I no longer have any expectations each month which has definitely made it a bit easier. We have both said we will keep trying until it happens and it’s just gonna take as long as it takes. I do find living by my menstrual cycle incredibly tough like you, it’s like life gets broken down. I have had a couple of preg announcements recently and they tipped me over the edge though 😂 I felt like a dreadful person for how I felt.

Ooh what was your AMH level?
I'd been worried about early menopause as my mum and grandma both experienced it. My AMH was something around 33 I think and at the time I was concerned about PCOS but was reassured it was fine. The more time goes on and the more I notice symptoms though, I'm sure I do have it.

Yeah it's broken down into 2-3 week intervals and you have the frustration and gut punches in both! Or I find that anyway. Almost find the follicular phase worse than luteal as I just don't know how long it's going to be month to month 🤯

I think everyone feels that way with pregnancy announcements so please don't feel bad. It doesn't mean you're a bad person or not happy for those people. It just means you're sad for yourself and that's ok. I get the same feelings, had to delete my social media for a couple of months as couldn't cope seeing them all and all the bumps. Have to believe it'll be us one day. X

@dabs9 we are in totally the same situation there, my AMH was 32 which they said was high for a 35 year old. My mum went through menopause at 39 too so I was massively relieved that I am not haha. Yeah doctors also told me not to worry and it won’t make a difference. Did you have any scans? I guess I’ll see what the day 3 tests come back at. I don’t have any usual symptoms of PCOS (I’m quite petite and my cycles vary from 28-31 days, which I’m told is normal) though I do get hairs on my chin—which is joyous 😂

yeah does your ovulation date vary? It’s such a pain. Mine can be anywhere from day 15-18 so have to use opks. We’ve just been having sex every other day around then and maybe once more on peak. Hoping that does the trick! This month I don’t know if I can be bothered with opks, we basically know when ovulation might fall so as long as we cover that period I think it’s ok. I’ll probs change my mind coming up to it though! I feel like I have no energy anymore for it all.

Aw bless you. I also deleted my social media for same reasons and it helped! I keep telling myself that it looks like people have it really easy but that may not be true x

@Annapolis35 oh wow! Our situations couldn't be much more similar if we tried hahaha. I think my mum was about 37 so was a huge relief!
I did have a scan and hycosy and I had 30 follicles (20 in one ovary and 10 in the other) which the Dr said was fine but reading online it seems that's on the higher side.. another reason I think I have pcos. Have you had any scans yet or will that come after fertility pick up your referral?
My BMI is 28 so defos need to lose some weight and I've been getting laser hair removal on my face for years but thought the hair was just due to darker hair.. now questioning it lol.

My cycles have gone to shit since nov/dec last year. I thought it was stress related but don't know for definite. They've been 26-64 days 😅 so I literally have no clue when ovulation is due.. I think sex every other day is a good shout, I think the opks really do cause stress and puts ttc in your mind right from waking up. That's why I stopped with the BBT too. X

@dabs9 no scans yet, hoping with referral they might do that. That does seem a lot of follicles. I thought my chin hair was due to darker hair too, I am Indian and all my female family members have same so just thought it was a genetic thing 😂 but having looked it up, PCOS is highly prevalent amongst Indian women.

Gosh your cycles are so variable, that’s just stressful in itself. I can imagine now that the follicular stage is just very very annoying with the waiting! Yeah I think I’ll take a miss from opks this month, it’s just annoying peeing in cups constantly. I also hide it from my husband as it stresses him out and he has problems performing if he knows it’s a peak day, which is fair enough, there’s so much pressure. So anything I can do to make things easier for us both is the right thing to do.

@LeopardLoverSadly I'm out for this month. AF has arrived this morning with a vengeance; feel awful! 😖 What about you?

I started tracking bbt again today cd5 took a little break over the af days. I’m thinking of only tracking until ovulation is confirmed so I don’t see the 12dpo drop and overanalyze temps everyday.