Spunk me up! - Bus 18

[Juno231]

Come join us on our TTC journeys - all you need is a sense of humour!

Bus history:
June - 24 BFPs
July - 11 BFPs
August - 18 BFPs
September - 4 BFPs

Testing dates:
@2020mission - October 6th
@notyetamumbuttrying - October 6th
@Katao - October 9th
@minster2012 - October 12th
@nestinginNL - October 14th
@Vil10 - October 16th
@Franklydear - October 25th
@Juno231 - October 26th
@clairey844 - October 30th

@Katao my younger self is a bitch, she led me to believe this would all be so easy 😂

@lucyrp so frustrating, should have just bit the bullet and carried on when it was all working so well 🙈 I'd love 3 but at this point in time if I get a second I'll be absolutely delighted. Saying that I adore my dd and thankfully me and OH are more than happy with her but she would love a sibling, I'd love another and I'd love for him to get to be a part of it all from the start. He says it doesn't bother him and he loves her as if she was his own and he is amazing with her but I do feel he's saying that to take pressure off me.

@Minster2012 I have the green eyed monster for my younger self 😳
I don't know how women do this every month... mood swings 🙈 oh man I become a demon! Yesterday morning I was in such a foul mood, makes me think AF is just around the corner (trying not to get hopes up). The boobs aren't too sore but noticeably bigger but that might be due to eating everything in sight 😂
I'm a type 1 diabetic so any pregnancies should be meticulously planned months before and know it can take a lot longer so I'm sort of expecting this to take a while. Last time I had extreme anxiety my whole pregnancy because it was unplanned and I was told all the worst case scenarios. It is a miracle I had a healthy baby. Properly put me off having another for years. Now I'm in a much better relationship and look after my health a lot better than I did. I've done my 6 months of high dose folic acid, almost normal blood glucose thanks to a hell of a lot of work and a healthy BMI 🙌🏻
Hopefully just a case of waiting and getting as much 🍆 as possible!

@hopeful110 sorry your feeling down. Its such a havoc on emotions isnt it 😥 be kind to yourself. Treat yourself to something nice, cheer you up a bit xx

@Hopeful110 thanks hope it'll stay that way tomorrow 🥰

@Gem176 yes same I would love for OH to have his own. It's such a shock isn't it ! I would like another 3 but I feel like that isn't going to happen somehow 🙈 even 1 I would be jumping for joy !

@hopeful110 some of us may have been trying longer but even when I was at 4 months I was losing my mind, its a very hard journey. I don't think you should take a break as it were, it can take up to a year (or 2 years the doctor told me) I know its super hard trust me I lose my mind every month lol but keep trying it will happen! Especially if you have regular cycles that you know realistically where you need to dtd to be in with a shot x

@Minster2012 loooool at the umbilical cord comment fml men!!! Who needs them ayyyy haha you do crack me up x

@Missgoldilocks @lucyrp @2alreadywantanother @mosherchick thanks girls, im hoping its just hormones playing up and making me feel down, this month is the first month I didn't use cbd opk, I just used IC ones, but I think il reorder the cbd and use them for nov, I've also booked 2 weeks off work at beginning of November so I can destress and just relax a little bit, (I work full time in retail as a store manager so there's never a real break unless annual leave) hopefully that will cheer me up :) just ate a whole bag of oreo dairy milk minis so...how long til a bfp? 🤞🤣 but nah ill try keep my spirits up otherwise as you say it will actually drive me insane:( still got about 5 days til I can write this month off so 🤞 xx love to you all! Thankyou for your support xx

@Mosherchick this is me at the minute, all bar one symptom could be AF. Just messes with your head! WFH and no one else is home so I've switched the heating off (unheard of for me) and I'm still sweating but I was a human furnace just before AF last month, nearly booked a covid test 😂

@lucyrp can I ask how old your first is? Mine is 7 and I'm a bit worried about the age gap. I'm a bit disorganised and don't think I would be able to handle two little kids however despite herself being desperate for a sibling I wonder how she would cope with no longer being the centre of attention?

I'll throw that out to anyone else that wants to reassure me that age gaps aren't a big deal...

Also are there any symptoms that are strictly early pregnancy rather than ambiguous?

@Gem176 my DS is 5 and I'm so annoyed we didn't start trying sooner as the age gap is so big already. He'll be 6 in April! I keep thinking it will be nice as because he's in school then I'll have the time for just the new baby in the day if you get me x

@Hopeful110 it's so disheartening and easy to get down about it all. This is our second month of tracking but haven't been taking contraception since March and I naively thought it would be that simple.
A bfn makes me so miserable so from now on I'm only testing if AF is over 5 days late. Don't know why but "not pregnant" on a cbd is so much worse than AF arriving 🤷🏻‍♀️
Look after yourself and get some more Oreos 😉

@lucyrp totally get what you mean, I loved being in that "baby bubble" where I could devote all my time to her so always thought I wanted a decent age gap so 2nd baby could get a bit of that undivided attention when oldest was in school.

@lilacflower12 here’s a picture of him, it’s wednesday now but puppy pictures always make days better ☺️

@Minster2012 sorry it’s officially a BFN 🤗 sounds like pushing on is the right thing to do though! I get what you mean about wanting to be pregnant. OH and I were talking last night about what we’d do if my tubes are indeed blocked, when I was younger I always thought I might adopt but when he brought it up last night it just felt so wrong to me. Hopefully the last embryo is a sticky one for you ❤️

@Mosherchick from what I’ve been reading and after my experience this month I think not feeling pregnant is one of the biggest signs of being pregnant 😅 keeping my fingers crossed for you that it was implantation spotting not AF.

@Savethechubbyunicorns ooh! Hope the lines keep getting stronger! How exciting x

I’ve decided I’m stopping temping after ovulation this month until AF arrives, so I’m not counting down the days. I need to find a way to relax myself around it more. These three months before my tube check were only supposed to be “let’s casually try and see” anyway and TTC now dominates my life. I want it back!

Although I normally temp at 7.30 and pup has had me leaping out of bed with emergencies at 7am yesterday and today... so they’re not going to be accurate anyway if that keeps up 🤣

@Minster2012 I mean, I DEFINATELY have a hormonal imbalance with pcos 😂 but I am worried there's something else stopping the natural process of things.
Sorry about the clinic test. It WILL happen, and you deserve so much to have a bfp ❤️

@2020mission umm... I'm not sure as I get sore boobs immediately AFTER ov but not in the lead up to af. This month I haven't had anything though 😕

@lucyrp aww so awful 😢

@Hopeful110 don't be sorry for feeling all the crazy emotions ttc brings! We've all had our down days and that's ok. It's unfair, frustrating and just plain shit tbh! BUT we're all in it together and just know that your time will come 💕

Right... is anyone else curious about what ruthie said to get her message deleted earlier ?!

@Newbie0818 was it deleted? It just said 'no' and there was an emoji i think. I just thought she posted on the wrong thread or something 🤷‍♀️

@Gem176 that's what I'm telling myself anyway to make myself feel better 🤣

@Newbie0818 so sad isn't it! The Ruthie comment was a spam comment I believe she just commented an emoji and a jumble of letters 😂

@NestinginNL he's gorgeous! Super jel of your pup
@blodyn91 haha oh shut up it was actually velvet as well

@Hopeful110 I think I started feeling deflated at cycle 4 so definitely know how you feel! Don't apologise, all your feelings are legit and we've been there

@Newbie0818 the deleted message said "No "

Hi everyone
@Minster2012 sorry is official, I completely get you on carrying yourself, but my mum says there's no difference with the one she didn't, but she did carry two, on that note @lucyrp and others asking for gaps, we are 22 and 19 years difference with our little brother, I think he is the only one who loves it, my D's is 10, 11in may...
Someone was asking about TTC bringing you down, it fucking does, and I didn't have af for many years too, the shock!
A week to af and trying to stop myself symptom spotting, it's just not happening

@Juno231 tentatively my date will be the 22nd but I'm not actually going to test then ( or so I say) just going to wait until AF comes or doesn't lol I don't really have a date but don't want to be left out 😂🤣

@NestinginNL the pup is gorgeous, #pupenvy,
@Juno231 spunk me up again, you did it wrong for a tittle

@Franklydear haha well we're all still here so definitely did it wrong first time! Maybe I can tweak some Britney into it - Spunk me baby one more time, or somethin

@Juno231 my next test date isn't until next month... 2nd November

Does anyone else find DTD at this time of year more of a challenge... when it's cold the last thing I want to do is get my clothes off 😂 I think I'm going to have to get the heating back on 🔥

@Katao apparently so! @Juno231 fair enough haha! Not sure what that means 😂 @lucyrp

@lucyrp I'm telling myself the same thing 😂

@frankly I'm also desperately trying not to symptom spot, I know I'll only end up disappointed but can't help it 👀

@Juno231 AF is due 18th and I've said I won't test until 5 days late so put me down for 23rd if you haven't seen a rage post about AF before then 🙈
For Britney/Spunk name ideas...

1. Gimme More (spunk)
2. Spunk Party

@NestinginNL that pup is beautiful 😍

@Juno231 please can my testing date change to the 21st! Flo is saying af due 20th and premom 21st!