Spunk me up! - Bus 18

[Juno231]

Come join us on our TTC journeys - all you need is a sense of humour!

Bus history:
June - 24 BFPs
July - 11 BFPs
August - 18 BFPs
September - 4 BFPs

Testing dates:
@2020mission - October 6th
@notyetamumbuttrying - October 6th
@Katao - October 9th
@minster2012 - October 12th
@nestinginNL - October 14th
@Vil10 - October 16th
@Franklydear - October 25th
@Juno231 - October 26th
@clairey844 - October 30th

Oh, that's rotten. Sorry, @Minster2012.

So I have an update. I didn't think I had any symptoms, but it's cold enough to see your breath outside, and I'm literally glowing like a furnace 😂 Is that a good thing?

@Minster2012 I'm sorry minster, really hope the next one is more successful! I don't envy you choosing where to put that egg though...

And I like colour too - I just keep thinking I can change curtains, pillows, rugs and wall paint several times over before I get to the price of one sofa lol. Oh and did I mention OH all of a sudden wanted a really bright teal sofa? I think I'd get sick of it after two hours!

@Newbie0818 that's interesting... are yours sore every month? I have some cycles with absolutely no breast pain and others where they're really quite sore to touch and have to keep reminding my husband to be gentle 😆 what can we even do about it though??

@Minster2012 so gutted for you. Will you be booking for your next try when you call the clinic? Hopefully your next embryo is the one! 🤞

Thank you ladies, it's so lovely being able to talk to you all. @2020mission yes DH & I have decided to try & lush and go straight ahead. I'm getting older (I'm 36 now) and I'm at a very healthy weight currently (though eating full English now 😬) & it will actually try keep me on straight and narrow a bit over Xmas. @Juno231evdn though we had the conversation of "what's the end goal here, baby or pregnancy" as in transferring to my friend would most likely get the result of baby, the expense is so much (even more than if we end up doing more full IVF if next one fails) and I'm so desperate for me to be pregnant I honestly think it would push me over the brink of mental health thinking "it's totally my fault" I can't do it to myself. I have to see this last one out myself before a big rethink. If we didn't have DS it would be different but we are lucky. And I love a bright sofa 😂

@Mosherchick oooooooo could be good who really knows!! 🤷‍♀️🤣

@Minster2012 I'm so sorry 🙏 this journey can be very hard. I agree that you should continue on your journey and do this last one yourself!! You can do it I am soooo rooting for you 🙌🤞🤞 that this one be the one you carry ❤️🤩😍 let's think very very positive thoughts. In Buddhism you are taught to believe in yourself and chant for the things you want in your life because you have the power to make it happen no one else. Though this situation is of course very touchy and sciencyyy I really believe in thinking things true. So keep your strong faith, every morning wake up in the morning and tell your body and your brain that you WILL be pregnant!! You will carry your baby!! You have a strong healthy lining ready and waiting for that little eggg to implant!! Start now and do it every morning! Now I need to take this advise too!!!! ❤️ ❤️

Morning ladies 😊
According to Flo, I'm cycle day 26 and 11dpo with AF due Sunday. It's the only way I'm measuring anything so far (open to any suggestions though) so I'm going to have to stick with those dates this month. Trying desperately not to symptom spot since Mother Nature is a cow who decided that early pregnancy and the imminent arrival of AF would be signalled by the same symptoms 😡
I was that awful bitch who conceived while using BC last time around and have been using BC since my late teens with little or no periods so last month thought I had all those early pregnancy symptoms but nope it was just bog standard pre period signals 🙄
Desperately trying not to symptom spot but I'm failing spectacularly! Kicking my 19 year old self for praying I wasn't pregnant!

@Minster2012 i'm so sorry, it doesn't mean much but I've read your posts on here and desperately hope you will be successful with the next round 🤞🏻🍀 ❤️

@Mosherchick I'm not sure if that is good but hopefully it is, I live in the freezing north and yesterday OH and DD wanted to crank the heating up in the car.... I was literally sweating already and my fingers were beginning to swell I was so warm! Had to take my ring off as it was getting uncomfy.

Omg girls I just read this and I cried ☹️😭 www.tommys.org/our-organisation/help-and-support/baby-loss-stories/breaking-taboo-miscarriage-neonatal-death-and-termination-medical-reasons

@Minster2012 dcb! This isvery educational 😂
@Gem176 aw dont call yourself a bitch for being a fertile myrtle 😂 we are only all jealous! Hope it happens quickly for you again 😉
@Mosherchick 🤞
@Missgoldilocks I think we all need to listen to that advice. Thanks for the pep talk 😘
@minster2012 first off sorry for the official bfn. Hugs my dear, hope the spa break has helped you work through it. It's a huge decision and baby/pregnancy is complex and hard to weigh things up but it is so understandable that you would want to carry your own child this time. Your friend did a wonderful thing for you and your husband but it must have been heartbreaking for you all the same to see her pregnant instead of you. It's none of my business obviously but I think you should give it another shot yourself

@Minster2012 it is good yeah but don't think it's gone baxj up enough ☹️ so sorry about your actual bfn ☹️

@Gem176 I also fell pregnant whilst on BC at 16😬🙈 wouldn't change it for the world but wish I could fall that easily now

Ha ha @Missgoldilocks do you know what about the lining thing I genuinely believe that one of the reasons my lining was good this time in such a short time is coz I'm constantly drinking pomegranate juice a glass a day from CD1. It can't hurt and I do think it's helped so will continue with that.

The clinic phoned back & ive gotta wait did November bleed then we will likely don't northisterone from CD21 on that so unlikely for transfer before Xmas, I will be on northisterone for ages, same as last year which ended up with a transfer on feb 7th though we would hope for transfer straight after new year this year but that's the same month I started the cycle last year that lead to MMC. Nov to transfer mid feb 🤦🏼‍♀️🙄anyway. On another weird note I spoke to hubby & MIL is coming over tonight to babysit as we are going out for a meal (we had it booked before as test day today) & he said, "she might ask questions...I went over there with DS yesterday & she thinks cos I went away & im a bit stressed that we are in trouble or something is going on, maybe u are leaving me or maybe IVF or I don't know but I think she thinks something is up& might ask" 🙄 bloody hell he is going on holiday as per usual with his mates in dec (not abroad) & wanting time book the rugby 2021 flights now it's official BFN for next July & just cos I go away for 2 nights but on my own we are in trouble 😂🤣FFS he could have just not seen his mother & not drawn attention to it FFS but his umbilical cord only stretches so far clearly.

Anyways. Rant over. Back in the room. Or field, dog walking.

@Gem176 we are def green eyed monsters for ppl getting preg easily but please don't worry!! All sisters here & that's why we say you only need a sense of humour. & the want to support each other actually so do not fear 🥰and bloody hell Mother Nature is a bitch, I'm basically infertile & when we TTC naturally during lockdown it was my first periods in like 17 years & I swore blind I was pregnant I was nauseas, my already big boobs were ENORMOUS & I was like "DON't YOU EVEN THINK OF TOUCHING THEM" & I had hot flushes, no appetite & the worst cramps ever. Then a period. Fucking bitch. 😂I said Jesus if you guys have don't this for years I'm so glad I had no periods 🤣

I need to get my pad from home for the answers to those questions and don't worry I got most wrong 😩

Hi ladies.
@minster2012 how you doing huni x hope ur okay.

Still having trouble with said tooth. On another antibiotic 😭 fml 5 wks this is going on and had my mmc in the middle of it all.
Doing opks since last wk and they were all a stark White. Just got this and have plenty of ewcm. Would you guys call this a high or peak ? Either way hes getting a bonkfest over the next few days 🤣🙈
Anyway hope he all keeping well.

@2alreadywantanother not quite a peak but def time for some aubergine emojis! Your control line is weirdly weak though, is it an old batch or something?

I had a flood of EWCM earlier (day 4 of it) so now just trying to hold off on weeing for long enough to do an OPK but I have a feeling I won't manage to test until 4 pm as I've had lots to drink now at lunch...

@Minster2012 lol at your MIL and OH not being able to deal with it himself!

@Mosherchick @Minster2012 lol, wouldn't it be nice to have a viewing window to be able to see inside, I could just keep an eye and be like yep, still plenty of sperm up there 😅 and here comes the egg 🤣🤣

Managed to get some 🍆 this morning so 🤞🏻 if ov was today or even yesterday I'm covered. Not that that seems to have made any difference in the past months lol.

@Minster2012 must be extra shit today to have to tell the clinic, must seem more final somehow.

@lucyrp think it's good your temp us heading back up even though it's not as much as you'd have hoped🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻

@Missgoldilocks love that positive thinking approach-might try it myself 😍

Have a good day everyone xxx

@Minster2012 sorry for your official bfn😞 and as for OH mil, don't they love to get involved and try and squeeze out any drama they can that isn't even there, boring😴

@lucyrp I hope it's a good sign for you🤞🏼

@2alreadywantanother wouldn't say peak but deffo high!! Get that bonkfest started!!

@Juno231 yassss to ewcm🥳

@Clairey844 if ov was recently you'll deffo have covered, only takes the once!

7dpo and still creamy cm and slightly sore boobs and my rhr is doing some crazy things, but I feel like I don't count anything until 9dpo because that's most likely the day of implantation (I'm talking like that will be the case this month) I wish🤞🏼

@Juno231 I like your OH taste! Make it velvet teal 😍

@juno231 no but they are out of date soon. I've other theres will try them later. Fingers crossed

@Clairey844 thanks, I really hope so. To be honest I'm not stressing about it but I will be annoyed if it doesn't go the way it should. I'm already CD39 so would like this cycle to end in anyway ASAP 😂

@Vil10 thanks I have everything crossed 😂🤞🏼

Afternoon ladies, @Minster2012 so sorry about your bfn :( but pleased your not giving up yet! That last egg might be the destined one 🥰🤞

@lucyrp id say as long as its going up thats the right direction :)

I'm sorry for my next part if it comes across insensitive or anything but this is the first time I've felt down about ttc, I don't know whats wrong and I know many of you have been trying for alot longer than me, but I just feel like this is month 4 of ttc and today I feel really deflated about it, im 9dpo today and my temp went back up to 97.7 today after a 3 day dip but not below coverline so atleast one things on my side, I done a frer and as expected bfn I know its early and I don't know why I did it to myself, but last night I poas a cheap poundshop one and im sure I saw a shadow within the 5 minutes...but the frer is pretty blank (no matter how much i try to convince myself there is a line im sure im just seeing things as oh couldn't see it) I have decided if we aren't successful this cycle I will go again in Nov and even try the smep. (Im due to O 8th nov according to ff) and if by end of nov im not pregnant I think I'm gonna take a couple of months out and try and get myself together again, I don't talk alot on here but today I've realised ttc is mentally and emotionally taking its toll now :(

Sorry for that, I hope everyone else is doing ok? Xx

@Gem176 Oh my word, yes!! AF is a cow! I took a month off trying a couple of months ago, and had all the same symptoms as when I think I'm pregnant each month 😂

Haha, yes @Clairey844, that would be awesome 😆 Just peel back the layers to check what's going on.

More pink spotting for me this morning, but only when I wipe. The tension is killing me lol.

@Hopeful110 It's perfectly fine. I'm.nkt many cycles further than you, and it is quite the shock when you discover that you can't just make a baby whenever you fancy, no matter wjat you have been conditioned to think! I'd been on the pill for 10 plus years. Now I'm thinking why did I bother 😂