Spunk me up! - Bus 18

[Juno231]

Come join us on our TTC journeys - all you need is a sense of humour!

Bus history:
June - 24 BFPs
July - 11 BFPs
August - 18 BFPs
September - 4 BFPs

Testing dates:
@2020mission - October 6th
@notyetamumbuttrying - October 6th
@Katao - October 9th
@minster2012 - October 12th
@nestinginNL - October 14th
@Vil10 - October 16th
@Franklydear - October 25th
@Juno231 - October 26th
@clairey844 - October 30th

So sorry ladies. 💙💙

@Amy00 sorry this is all dragging on for you. Take care x

@Minster2012 and @Katao so sorry, there is still time! It's still early! ❤

Sending hugs to you both ! X

@Katao @Minster2012 sorry my darlings. Hope you're both ok.

@lucyrp glad you're doing ok on the whole! And go you for sorting yourself out! Did OH join in once he got over the shock of seeing you 😂

So sorry @Minster2012 and @Katao but like people have said there is still time i still have everything crossed for you both

How utter shite are clear blue early tests. I got this but negative on first response. Check out how the clear blue has dried after an hour! Head fuck !! It was a vv do before this but grey!

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@Jaysdream7 I never trust clear blue anymore. I had 4 faint positives on different cycles and they were actually bfn.

@notyetamumbuttrying no he didn't!😂 he went back downstairs and carried on doing what he was doing so I put some jiggle balls in and my friend came round for a cup of tea with her boyfriend so I told my OH I had the balls in and after they left he joined in 😂

@lucyrp savage!! X

Oh @Katao @Minster2012 so sorry for bfn 💔 utterly shite

@katao @Minster2012 hopefully it's just too early xxx

@Jaysdream7 sorry but I agree with @lucyrp you can't trust the line after an hour - it might be evap line. Just saying so you don't get your hopes up too much - test again tomorrow, fingers crossed it is a BFP x

@lucyrp haha good girl! 😜

I don’t trust the little buggers!!! First response much better xx

@Amy00 oh no on the positive sorry fir your positive again, that's weird isn't it you saying sorry for negative and I'm saying sorry for positive 🤨but a lovely fluffy lining there yes.

@Jaysdream7 unfortunately clear blue are a bit notorious, def test with FRER tomorrow & perk us up lovely xx

I'm absolutely gutted ladies. Yes it's early but it's like the equivalent of 12dpo so highly unlikely to change realistically. DH & I had big cry & hugs before DS got up. I don't exactly think I'm done crying. Big dog walk now after dropping DS off at nursery then see if I can face getting a nice breakfast somewhere & do some life admin. Not really feeling like eating atm.

@nestinginnl you can't rely on your cervix position for whether you're pregnant or not a few ppl I gave known thought they was out but they wasn't due to their cervix being in the normal position! It is very accurate for ovulation though. My cervix only goes high and soft for one day and that's the day of ov. Yep I'm like that, I get so down and think I can't concieve naturally this is month 15 for me 😑 this is the first month I've decided to try and relax lol

@Jaysdream7 sorry I didn't mean to to sound so blunt I didn't really read your message properly I just scanned! Sorry but yeah I don't trust them at all anymore. How many dpo are you ? X

Regarding cervix positions - just a reminder that it's best to check at the same time every day to get some consistency as it moves around during the day anyway :)

On a completely different note - I managed to snag a babywear shawl thing on ebay the other week (they normally go for like £50 but grabbed one at £14 after looking for maybe 6 months lol?!) and I'm not even embarrassed about getting baby stuff anymore. I'm just so ready to have a baby that I don't care. I'm going to a friend's house end of the month and she has lots of stuff saved for me like a bath, electric rocker etc and I can't wait to pick all of it up

@lucyrp hey you were not blunt at all lovely. They are awful xxx

@Minster2012 just got through the messages and I'm so so sorry for your bfn ☹️😭😩 I understand that realistically with ivf around now you'd get a positive right? I'm still hoping and praying that you get a later one 🙏🙏😔 so sorry that's just so shit there are no words

@katao sorry about your bfn I know how hard it is seeing them 😞😞😞 this journey will turn the most sane person crazy

@Juno231 Hahahaha I might have to send him that to break the ice!

@Minster2012 I bloody am sex starved!!! Especially when I'm this moist!!

@Minster2012 @Katao nooo😞 I'm so sorry ladies, sending you both lots of hugs❤️

Well I woke up about 10:20 last night and OH werent next to me so I text him asking if he was still out he said no so I asked where he was he said downstairs so I asked if he was sleeping down there and then he came up to bed about 10 minutes after, got in bed and turned his back on me straight away and slept as close to the other side of the bed as he could, honestly I felt so sad and awful, we never ever argue let alone fall out like this, it made me feel so sad, but this morning I woke up and thought no fuck you, I've apologised, left him to it, give him his space and he's still being a bag of a dicks, so I left this morning without saying bye of giving him a kiss, and I won't be speaking to him today, and I will be going out for tea with the girls after work, he can sort himself, I realise I probably sound really stubborn and petty but I'm also not the type to beg someone to speak to me let alone my OH! Sorry, rant over! Hope everyone else is having a lovely Wednesday❤️

Good for you girl!! I would be the same I won’t beg for bloody forgiveness men can be cocks can’t they! He will soon come running !! Enjoy your afternoon with the girls. Xxx

@Missgoldilocks phew! Thanks for reminding me of that. I sort of knew that it’s much more accurate for ovulation and not for conception, but I’ve been told so much negative stuff about my chances that in my head any sign it hasn’t worked naturally and I take it.

@Minster2012 @Katao oh no, gutted for you both ❤️

@Minster2012 I'm so sorry lovely. Everybody here was (and still is) totally behind you, this is shit news. Worst BFN ever. Big hugs 💜

@Missgoldilocks yeah, it should show on a FRER now a week after a 5 day old transfer, prob not a 3 day one but a 5 day one should have been ready to implant within 1-2 days so last Thursday /Friday so HCG should be there. I thought it looked a much more tenacious little bundle of cells than the feb one which at least made it to 6 weeks 😢😣 I just find it so hard to believe that the sharp pains I had on Thursday & twinges afterwards (which are there not in my head) are the drugs but I guess so.

One frostie left, a day 3, but the other one from the only 2 embryos we got first round of embryo making which created our son, so maybe it's fate.

Another look at the finances this morning.

It breaks my heart as DS is so sociable & obsessed with putting his animals into family groups (he says "mummy crocodile, daddy crocodile, baby crocodile") then last night he got his coloured bowls out (4 of them) & went "Daddy, Mummy, X (him)," & looked at the smallest &went " another baby X" literally 😭😢even DH was like oh that's tough.

@Katao yours IS still early lady 🤞🏻

However, I just LOL'd at @Juno231 saying don't forget your cervix moves & I read it as "rolls around" & had this image of a snooker ball bashing around the starting triangle thing?? Ping ping ping. Just me. 🤪