TTC after miscarriage - April 2020 part 2

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I've created us all another thread as we filled the last one!

@mommybear05 I had no idea how long I'd feed for. I never thought I'm definitely going to bf, once he was born though, all I wanted was to get bf right. Every time he woke in the hospital i buzzed for the midwives to check we had got the latch right.

He's already asked more today than he did yesterday and has been difficult to distract!

@renna yeah the ones u used arnt very sensitive so not suprised u got bfn at 10 dpo so dnt lose hope!! mine are pretty sensitive but they are cheapies so im holding onto hope they are just rubbish haha 🤦🏽‍♀️ x
I know how u feel about thinking about things and what should of been, it would have been my baby shower on saturday, the only reason i havnt lost the plot completely over it is because of this covid thing going on and knowing it would of been cancelled anyway so in hindsight the experience would have been taken from me anyway which somehow makes that milestone easiee to deal with aswell as even giving birth without my mum... although she was there for Bonnies birth it was completely horrific experience so if everything was fine right now she wouldnt of been able to be at my first babys birth all these things kinda makes it all a bit easier to deal with as we all want our pregnancy / birth experience to be as it should be and not on lockdown xx

@renna reason im ttc during lockdown is because its probably the most relaxed and calm everyones lives will be to be able to conceive and those first 12 weeks at least would be perfect in lockdown especially if u feel morning sickness etc which i did for a few weeks x

@Hayleylou89 Yeah will try stay hopeful considering unlikely it would pick up even if I were pg then.. now just to resist the Frer's… are you holding off using yours until tomo/thurs when AF late ? xX So hard not to let your mind wander to things like that isn't it. But you are very right focusing on the positives that you can enjoy all these things once out of lockdown properly xx I thought Id be relaxed etc too but founding myself more wound up ..I have a feeling its because first month properly TTC since a loss though … bound to change the way I handle it I guess XX

@Niisa Oo that’s good to know - I shall check out amazon! I don’t normally get spotting, my body has always decided to go full on from the get go 😂 so fingers crossed! I’m usually 27 or 29 days - so to be 24 is a little weird!

I have been doing ok positivity wise since my mc, but I had a friend just announce her pregnancy to me and our friends - and it’s got me down as hubby and I really want a baby! It feels like no one was pregnant before I started trying, and after I had a mc lots of people I know are having babies! I wasn’t even aware she had a boyfriend so I’m also feeling a bit guilty that I’m a rubbish friend lol!

Thinn she might be on her way, just had some brown tinged cm, and cramps x

I'm starting to doubt that test just had a feel up there to see about CP and I swear it's moved lower and still quite firm .

I've got no cramps at all which I should have by now as AF due tomorrow but still have slight back ache unless AF is gonna be late on me again which means my cycle have changed yet again !

I don't know

Guess il find out tomorrow gonna be a long night I think ! X

@Donnat89 I've read quite a few things to say that cp and cm are quite unreliable, unless you know your pattern. That being said im obsessed with checking mine!! Mine way high this morn but has also been low and medium today. Try and stay positive!! Xx

@Renna Thank you for the advice, will start doing the opks

@Donnat89 ahh I've just got in from work and this has made my day 😍 I knew somebody in this thread would get one. I'm always so crap with looking at tests when they are faint lines (I have no line eyes) but that is blaring to me. After all the time TTC I honestly couldn't be happier for you. 🌈 ❤️

@Renna I'm sorry it was a BFN but like you know, you are still super early, I'd give it another 2 days throw yourself into work and then do your FRER. The floodgates have opened now so I'm definitely expecting more BFPs this week. Sending you loads of love xx

@Donnat89 really dont think you can rely on CP babe xx I can imagine its driving you crazy .. I've had a crazy lady day ! But I hope the eve flies by and you get reassured tomo morning by an even darker line 😘 xx

@temogemo good luck with it hun xx let us know how you get on xx

@SmileyT aw thanks hun xx starting to feel a bit better this afternoon. Especially after I realised that cheapie is not very sensitive at all. Trying to stay hopeful and I'll probably wait until AF due Sunday to do a frer if I can hold out that long 🤞🌈 hope work was okay for you today and you're feeling ok xxxx

@Niisa @Mommybear05 sorry this is me just replying been busy working today.
I'm fine today thanks af ended up showing her face just as I was going to bed last night so I guess I count that as day 1 of my cycle. Been crampy today but nothing too bad thankfully. Hope you are both well x.
@Niisa sorry you had to go through that really hope you get that bfp soon 😊. X

@Donnat89 congratulations fingers crossed your line is so much darker tomorrow but there is a definite line there. X
@Renna I bought the femometre testing sticks to use this cycle. X

@Hayleylou89 tell me about it! Today was supposed to be my first midwife appointment at 16 weeks and it hit me that I would have been 16 weeks today! And then I think with all this madness going on, maybe being that far gone would not have been great... all up in my feelings today hah!

@Bellabubble Awww it’ll be your turn soon I promise!

@HE88 sorry AF caught you! It’s a new cycle - a fresh start again! Praying for you xxxx

Hey girls.

Sorry been so busy today! Hope ur all ok !!

@renna yeah its good in a way ur test was 25miu as it def keeps u firmly in the game getting a bfn on one that not so sensitive so chin up :) x x if i can wait till friday to do my frer then so can u cos im def less patient than u are 🙈😂

@Niisa bless!! sorry u would have a had a milestone today.. they are awful these milestones arnt they probably like most ppl I really hope Im preg by my due date on 7th june ... but for that to happen i need to be pregnant by my next cycle at the latest...it would just make it a little easier to deal with if i was already pregnant by then with our rainbow 🌈 🙏 x x

Thanks ladies ! I'm just willing the hours away now and hoping no AF tomorrow and an even stronger line all I can do is hope !

I will update tomorrow x

Ahh @francis05 hope ur wrong about AF Poss arriving? Xx

@Donnat89 My cp has changed dramatically twice today .... it was low and hard this morning and now its high a medium hard this evening ... just so random i think yet i still check it... dont know why (maybe in time ill recognise my own patterns)

Try and relax and have an early night and im sure u bfp will be stronger in the morning 😘 xx

@Hayleylou89 yes mine seems to change slightly through out the day , and I've never really noticed any dramatic changes in it .

Yea I've had a nice long soak and plan on trying to go to bed soon but my
Sleep pattern is awful at the moment !

Xxx

Thanks @Niisa your right fresh start, stay positive and fingers crossed. X

So I think I may have got a vvf bfp on a frer this morning!! Really trying hard not to get too excited about it though, it came up in the time frame aed is definitely pink although very light. I'll try and upload a picture via the laptop as my phone won't let me xx

@francis05 that's so exciting! Can't wait to see the pic!

Ahh @francis05 sooo excited for u!! X x try and send a pic definitely xx

I swear i can see the tinest line on my IC that i thought i did see in the time frame then thought it nothing and now its a bit after the time frame i can def see it but my tests have always been stark white.... dnt want to get my hopes up as my temp dropped this morning which is never a good sign its only 1 degree above the cover line .... dont judge as these pics are super squinters and it could even be my desperation eyes 😂 first pic was the one i took soon as i thought i saw something, the second one is after the timeframe 🙏...both look colourless to me though 🙄 x x

Hooray i've worked out how to post pictures from my laptop!!

Here s my frer from this morning, struggling to see a line on the photo though!!

I don't think it is as dark as @Donnat89

Thinking maybe the brown spotting last night could have been IB, had IB last pregnancy and got my bfp 3 days after so I should wait a couple more days probably