2ww buddies welcome!

[SaharaRoxy]

TTC number two... still breastfeeding. I temped with Baby 1 but this time going on ewcm and rise in libido! Cycles are pretty regular but slightly long at 32-35 days but they've always been like that. Periods returned when my greedy EBF baby was only 4 months and have been like clockwork. Baby is now 18 months old.

Anyone wishing to join and just about starting the 2 week wait are welcome!

@Sho2207 ah ok, well I bet it was still amazing to see the little flutter. Did they say anything at the scan about what the bleeding or pain could be? That's good of your company I'd definitely take it.
I usually start spotting about a week before but I've had nothing apart from this morning I had some when I woke up and then none after. It's weird coz I don't have any symptoms other than I feel bloated but I've been eating loads and not moving much so I'm not surprised.

@dizzy85
I asked what they thought it could be and they didn't really say a lot, just sort of brushed it off as if it was normal. The pains are slowly getting stronger each day so I don't think it's gonna be good news. Although blood only appears when I go to the toilet and wipe 🤷🏻‍♀️ and it's not covering the tissue so it's not majorly bad at the moment..

So are you just going to wait to do a test?

Just to let you ladies know, I passed the gestational sac today so I've now got my answer. Heartbroken is an understatement, why is life so cruel😭
I'm so glad my partner has the next 4 days off, I really need him right now.

Good luck for the next couple weeks. I'm not sure as to when I'll next be active but I'd still like to see how you's get on.

Baby dust to you both @dizzy85 @Swife ❤️

@Sho2207 prayers up for you🙏🏽. Take as much time as you need.

I'm doing good so far not HCG Testing. Today is 11dpo on Femometer but 12dpo on Premom. Not sure why it's like that I entered my LH tests at the same time in both apps🤔. They even have me starting my period at different times so I'll try to hang on since I should be starting my period between the 11th and the 15th. I have been checking my cervix and it's not high so I'm kind of not expecting to have made it this month but as we know, it not over until AF shows so 🤞🏽. I have 2 days left in my Progesterone round and I usually start my period a day or two after the last dose so we'll see.

I hope all you ladies are staying safe and protected. 🧚🏽‍♀️ Baby Dust to everyone in this journey. It can be tough but for us here, Motherhood is worth the fight.

@Sho2207 oh my god I've just seen your message I am so so very sorry I can't believe that. We are here for you if you need anyone to talk to or anything. ❤️ my heart goes out to you and your partner xxx

@Swife fingers crossed for you. I am currently 3 days late and haven't tested yet I'm not sure when I will I'm too scared to. I had a bit of spotting when I woke up yesterday but then nothing else and I just had the same today so I'll see if anything else happens today and then decide about testing.

@dizzy85
Thank you, I totally forgot how heartbreaking it is.
Especially when the sac just falls out of you 💔 I feel so empty now, it's weird, I never had a bump but I think I got so used to feeling bloated all the time to now feel so empty is just horrible.
I'm so worried to try again because I'm scared to mc again but at the same time I want to get straight to it because I'm just so desperate.
My friend gave birth yesterday morning to her gorgeous little boy as I was losing my little peanut 😢

I first had a chemical pregnancy and now at 6 weeks mc so I'm worried if I get pregnant again I'll get to around the 10 week mark and lose another baby. I just want it so bad 😢
I don't even know when I'm allowed to start trying again, or even when I'm next going to ovulate 🤷🏻‍♀️

@dizzy85 hang in there girl😊! I'm trying to wait as well but I have been checking my cervix since my loss was found as a result of paying attention to my cervix height. I expect AF to come either tomorrow or by the 15th. I've noticed the past two days I've had some nausea but that could be because I'm in a fast. 🤞🏽and plenty of🧚🏽‍♀️to all of us

@Sho2207 some words of encouragement. I'm 39 have had 2 ectopics, 1 MC, and 1 non-viable. The last OB was just last year. I as suffer Endometriosis. I'm on cycle 12 of ttc and yes it gets depressing, overwhelming, emotional and so much more. I keep going because I have a goal to become mother and if I can't do it this way I know there are plenty of children that need love. But I want to keep fighting and holding my baby is is what keeps up that fight in me. SO KEEP FIGHTING, LOVE! WE ALL DESERVE TO BE MOTHERS 🥰🙏🏽

@Sho2207 😢 I totally understand it truly is awful. I've also had a mmc at almost 3 months and a chemical so I'm terrified of anything else happening but like @Swife says i will fight for the chance of being a mum and whatever the journey throws at me I will get back up and keep trying. You never know how the next time will go and as heartbreaking as it is to go through I think us women are exceptionally amazing and strong and we will all get what we want eventually. Have you spoken to a doctor? You might have to be checked out. I think they usually like you to wait until after you've had a period to start trying again but I actually know someone that conceived straight after a mc and they've just had their baby. It is really hard but just make sure you give yourself enough time and whenever you feel ready then try again❤️xxx

So I finally tested today and bfn, think it's just a case of late af 🙄

On two of my apps AF is late if it doesn't start today. My cervix is soft and low so I'm actually expecting AF by the end of the night or buy the 15th like my Femometer app says. I really wanna break and test but what's 4 more days...right🤔. I think I can make it😁. Wish me luck ladies! I vow not to test for 4 more days.
@dizzy85 remember it's not over till AF shows 🤞🏽 & 🧚🏽‍♀️.

@Swife how are you doing today?
Well I tested today and there's definitely a faint line on there but it was my last test and only a Poundland strip so I'm gonna try to get some better ones today of I can but I'm too scared to go in shops 😬
Are you still going to wait to test? Got everything crossed for you🤞🏻

@Sho2207 thinking of you, hope your ok❤️

@dizzy85
Oooh exciting!!

I'm doing ok, every so often I'll get upset but I'm definitely getting better.
I want to start trying again once I've stopped bleeding but I've decided this months gonna be more chilled out until I get my period. Not gonna use opks and just gonna go with the flow.
I spoke to my epu yesterday because I had a scan booked in for the 22nd, they want me to do another test on the 20th to make sure it's a negative before I cancel which is fair enough.

The bleeding is now calming down, less bright red and more of a pink when I wipe, so I think what needed to come out has been and gone.
I started to think yesterday, could it be my body that just can't hold a baby.. I'm still just confused as to why I saw the flutter heart but the next day it died..

@Sho2207 that's good the bleeding is stopping. Hopefully you can get back to trying soon when your ready. I do often think that about my body too and now I've seen that faint second line I feel worried, it's horrible having to feel this way and question everything. It's really sad that you got to see the flutter and then go through that I really feel sad for you. Is your OH at home keeping you company? Have you got anything to watch or anything, something to get lost in and distract yourself whilst your feeling down? When I came out of hospital after my mmc I just laid in bed and watched a series I got into and it really helped to keep me from thinking too much until I started to feel ok again.

@dizzy85 I did break yesterday evening and tested. I got a BFN, but, AF has yet to show so I'm not gonna test anymore until after the 15th since my Femometer app says that's when I'm supposed to start according to Premom and another app I have, I'm late. So we'll see.

A faint line is always a boost of excitement!
Let's pour on the baby dust 🧚🏽‍♀️ and keep those fingers crossed 🤞🏽for us and the whole group 😆!

@Sho2207 I'm glad you're on the recovery road 😊. I truly understand how you feel about your body not working properly 😒. I often have the same complaint to my own body, especially after all my pregnancies produced 0 babies. It's never easy getting thorough the dreaded "body betrayal'. When you go for your scan, talk to your doctor about those concerns. I live I the US so I'm not really sure how most docs are worldwide but I do know that most OBGYNs will listen to your concerns and try to find tests and solutions.

Most of all like @dizzy85 said, distraction is always helpful. I do artwork, crochet, meditate and binge watch shows and movies and when it's time to start fresh you will know. Keep your head up.😍

@Swife @dizzy85
Yeah I've got my OH with me till he goes back to work Tuesday, we've had a long weekend together thankfully! He's been my rock!
We've ordered some paint and gonna start decorating our new flat so I'll have my mind occupied for the next week or two ☺️
Just looking forward to not bleeding so I can start the process again.
Thanks for all the support ladies, it really helps to know I can speak to people on here about my worries, I would be told I'm being 'silly' if it was anyone else xx

@Swife sorry for your bfn yesterday but there's definitely still time, when will you test again? I'm going out today to buy some tests hopefully the lines got darker🤞🏻. What kind of artwork do you do? I love doing anything creative too I find it so relaxing, I want to start meditating more I do it occasionally but my brain is too noisy and I find it hard to relax.

@Sho2207 glad you've had your OH at home with you. Ooh I love decorating its so fun seeing it all coming together.
No need to thank us, that's what we're here for to support eachother ☺️ and if anyone ever told your your being silly then they clearly have no idea. To be fair I think they just don't get it coz I have a good friend who recently went through a mc and after she said to me she had no idea how I felt at the time of mine until she had hers she didn't realise how bad it actually is to go through so I think it's just harder for people to get it unless they've had similar experiences.
Hopefully soon you can get back to it🤞🏻

Hi ladies, I haven't been on for a while. @Sho2207 I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope you're okay 😥💕

I had a chemical early March and we decided not to try last month due to the Coronavirus but we've been trying for this month so I'm now on my TWW again.

Hope all of you lovely ladies are doing good

K x

@dizzy85 well since two of my fertility apps say I'm late and one still has me starting on the 15th. I think I'm gonna try to wait till the 15th comes. I did have my first ever 40 day cycle in Jan but some they've been back to 27 days, so I'm really not sure what's going on🤔. By body betrays me a lot in this journey😒. My art world consists of nail design, drawing, and crochet. I use meditation to help me sleep as I'm an avid insomniac 😂. I also have a few apps to help to some of them even let me make my own sleep sounds! My mind NEVER shuts off so it helps a lot.

Morning ladies, so these are my tests from last night and this morning 😬.....

@dizzy85 oh yay!! Congratulations!! So happy for you! 😁🥰