TTC Our Rainbow

[MeghanV07]

Hi all 💞 I had a miscarriage on the 5th September, I was 7+2 😔. We already have a 10 month old so I feel very blessed to have him. But now in the 2ww and I’ve done about a million tests already and they’ve all been BFN. Some I’ve thought they may possibly be a very very very positive but I’m doubtful. Is anyone else trying to conceive their rainbow 💞

@craftymum01 it is but I guess I'm trying to relax about everything more now x

I will apologise if I'm been abit negative & grumpy recently. I used to reply to everyone's messages be so involved & I feel I've just gone abit out the loop. I keep telling myself I'm not as bothered as before and I'm more relaxed about trying which I defo am. But it's so hard. I got pregnant 3rd cycle after coming off the pill. It's not been 3months since my MC and still nothing. 😔
Please know ladies I'm here for you x x

@Delilah7 girl. Don't apologise. We all have shot days/months and if you can't moan in here, where else can you moan?! Please vent all you want in here.

We're all here for you 🧡

@MeghanV07 thank you. I'm honestly over thinking so much. Full boobs and the pinching today. So so confusing myself hahaha x

You can deffo moan away!! I feel the same, just snapped at DH for no reason.
We all need to vent when we feel like shit

@craftymum01 I guess they don't realise how hard it is on us do they. I think my OH thinks I drone on and on about babies all the time hahaha x

To be honest, my DS had splashed water on me and he wouldn't hand me a towel which was closer to be than him. I was being highly unreasonable lol but it's been a long day

@craftymum01 hahahahahaha id of done the same 😂😂😂

It's so easy to symptom spot when you're so desperate isn't it @Delilah7. I had some shooting pains through my nipples last night 🤦🏽‍♀️ and I've had pinching this morning too and now have full cramping. So have of me is thinking is this it? And half I'm thinking I'm out. It's a pain in the ass all this!

Poor blokes they really get it don't they 😂😂😂😂

Hi all,

How are you all today?

@craftymum01 how are you after your news? I guess it sounds like good news? Positive news for the future anyway xx

I’m good I think thank you. The dr gave us some things to do for ttc such as taking high dose of folic acid and getting my bmi down so we are going to get cracking on that. Feels a relief to know we haven’t been told to stop trying.
How are you feeling?

Oh that's good. Feels good to know you are doing something to help doesn't it.

I'm good thank you, trying to stay positive, trying to keep calm

Glad you're both ok x x @Frazzlerock @craftymum01

I'm losing my shitttttttttt!

@Delilah7

Wanna have a rant?

@Frazzlerock fuck yes x

I have SO many symptoms and I haven't symptom spotted since the MC. I feel my body is playing tricks on me. I'm due in 9 days supposedly if based on 33 day cycle.... I hate this. I keep feeling like I've been robbed of my pregnancy before I'd of been 14 weeks by now and I'm not pregnant still!!! I'm losing my shit. Honestly. Struggling. Just want next cycle to hurry up so I can do the poxy clear blue ovulation sticks and confirm ovulation!!

I feel you. I've had 'stingy' boobs today.

This months feels like the longest ever doesn't it 😔. Are you going to hold out or text early?

Sending you love @Delilah7 xxxx

I know the feeling so well, so you're not alone in this @Delilah7

Our bodies do seem like mean things, but you are probably noticing these symptoms because you are hyper aware. I had all the symptoms under the sun for 2.5 years, it drove me nuts. DP and I nearly split up several times, I've lost 'friends', and most of DP's family think I'm fucked up.

A colleague sent me this today:

''Every adversity, every failure every heartache carries with it the seed of an equal or greater benefit' - Napoleon Hill

You may not believe it now, however.

If only we could all have a crystal ball eh? I never thought I'd ever experience pregnancy again after DP said no more as well as all the other things standing in our way. I wish I'd had a crystal ball for now, then I'd have been able to manage things a bit better.

You deserve this so much, and it will happen. I won't tell you to be patient because that is pointless.
Have you tried Pre-Seed or Conceive Plus? I honestly thoroughly recommend looking into OvuSense. I told my GP about it and she was impressed too.

Keep talking on here xx

@MeghanV07 hold out if I can. Thank you xxx

@Frazzlerock I haven't symptom spotted since miscarriage so it's shocked me I am now tbh! I just want to fall again. I felt a bond in such a short time and I want it back. Thank you. No I haven't I don't know how OH would feel regards lube yet haha. He might be insulted. I'll look into a few things x x

It's so much easier said than done, just try and keep busy.

It's so easy after AF, the lead up the ovulation and ovulation itself. Just the 2WW is incredibly hard & it's even harder after a MC. You've been given the baby you've always wanted, then it's taken away from you so quickly so makes all of this 100 times worse.

@Delilah7 we'll get there ❤️

@MeghanV07 thank you. I just hope this doesn't go on for too long as in the TTC ❤️

@Delilah7 I know babe, but she it does happen it will be worth all this stress, anxiety & us going crazy.

We all must keep in touch on here when we do get our BFP ❤️

@MeghanV07 of course ❤️

I've woken up really wanting to test 😩 I've felt really strong this week and now it's getting closer to AF I'm struggling to be positive 😔

Need to keep myself busy today, just need to get through the weekend and if I do get a positive Monday would be a good day as AF is due Tuesday/Wednesday 😖