Why can't I just accept and give up?

[PrettyCandles]

Why is bfing so important to me? Why can't I just accept that I'm one of those who can't do it? Why do I feel so threatened by formula? I've tried so hard to feed my LOs. Each one was a struggle. I've done my best. Why can't I just accept my limitations and move on?

Yes, to face outward he more-or-less sits cross-legged. But that's not a sleeping position

nope, definately not a sleeping position, lol!
Hipseat tends to be good for getting them off to sleep and still have some free hands time, lol!

yes, do try putting him on your back when he is not upset. and have someone around to make you feel confident if possible. If you can get him in a sling on the weekend and go for a walk. That way he can look around adn then nod off.

I never used an wilkinet but the ergo carrier mentioned below is excellent and a no-brainer. you can rent one for a week if you don't want to commit to buying one at first. also, know where you may be able to source a 2nd hand one.

i'll put up a pic of dd later on asleep and awake on a back carry ergo.