I don't think hes got long ...

[Disenchanted3]

been with my grandad all day.

The infection has just shattered his lungs, hes gone up to 100% pure oxygen and his oxygen levels aren't even at a normal level, they are still way below (a healthy person breathes only 21% oxygen in the air)

All he wants to do is go home to die, but he cant be on 100% oxygen outside the hospital, only 35% at most, they said he wouldn't even make it home in an ambulance.

He keeps saying 'this isn't how I wanted it to be'

Hes been so brave.

Hes just allowed them to give him 2 doses of oral morphine, he wont take an injection.

I'm a mess, Im scared I wont see him again and Im scared to go back tomorrow if he is here, I don't want to see him in pain.

So sorry, it's awful to watch someone you love in pain.

xx

so sorry thinking of you xx

So sorry Disenchanted. I lost my lovely grandad last month so unfortunately know how you feel.

We went to his flat as he wanted some things, he had a box with 'goodbye box' on it and envelopes with peoples names

i cant cope with it.

im a wreck anyway, this is just too much

My mum is with him as are my aunt and uncle. They are going to stay there now, not come home.

My DH is here.

I have never lost anyone, i never realised how painful it is to see it happen

i knew it was going to but i just want him not to hurt

i feel so sick

I am so sorry.

My Nan died nearly 4 years ago and I still miss her such a lot.

So sorry for you, sending you lots of comfort and love

my Gran died 3 and a half years ago from cancer. It all happened in a matter of 3 weeks. She so wanted to be at home when she died, but it became impossible to care for her at home and she had to go back into hospital. This was so hard for the family, but when the end came she had family with her and she was peaceful and in no pain.....and the family took comfort from that.
I am so sorry that you are going through this, i can't say anything that will make it better or easier to deal with, but want you to know that there are people here for you who know what you are going through and will listen if you need us to.

Thankyou

Just to let you know he passed at about 10:20pm very, very peacefully.

I am so relieved that he was no in pain and did not suffer.

I am sad, I keep crying but feel strangly relieved that he is no longer scared.

oh dis. I am so sorry You know my number if you want a chat. hope you get some rest

So so sorry for your loss

Wishing peace to you and your family.

Sorry for your loss. x

Thankyou, I didn't sleep last night at all, not a wink, i just had the TV on all night, It was only when it got light i had half an hour before baby woke up.

I felt OK, last night, i think I was just so relieved that he had a comftable last hour that It didn't really hit me.

But it is now, my gut is wrenched.

I miss him so much already.

when my mom passed i wasn't sad, i was ecstaticthat she wasn't in any pain anymore.
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So sorry. Take care though, and make sure that you look after yourself.

Sorry for your loss x

So sorry for your loss . Do you have photos of him around your house? My mum died nearly four years ago and I have photos of her in several rooms and "talk" to her every day. I sound like a loon but it helps me x