My life with DP is boring, he is boring, and I feel like I'm in a cage.
He developed a non -life threatening health condition after covid and though I understand how it affected him, he has since reduced his life to hobby and home. No more, no less. No holidays, no conversation, no affection, no meals out, cinema, theatre, socialising etc, etc. every evening is the same with meal, wash up, bath, bed. The few social activities around here are fine if you like being patronised .
I am going out of my mind.
I know I could take myself out and occasionally do, but 15-16 years ago I moved over 150 miles to be with him, so have no friends or family here and am so lonely. I loathe the town we live in, and am homesick. Not necessarily for the town I came from, but definitely for my home county.
I have tried many times talking to him about all this but he won't discuss it. He walks away/goes to bed then afterwards pretends it never happened.
I am living HIS life HIS way.
So -
Surfing Rightmove and onthemarket for properties in my home coastal area it seems there are quite a few flats to rent at relatively reasonable prices below £600 for 2 beds.
Pro's
*I would be beside the sea. I would 'know' every street, quirky turn, and history of the town.
*Be in my 'homeland'
*Be able to invite friends home. (I don't do it at the mo as he's so embarrassingly miserable).
*Be able to watch what I want on TV - he constantly picks fault with whatever is on the screen so I turn it off.
*Just live life my way in general.
Cons
*I would have to pay rent for the rest of my days. (am mortgage and rent free at the mo)
Most affordable flats are either 1st or 2nd floors - as I'm about to hit 70 yrs old might that become a problem, though I can still run up and down them right now.
*I have no living family members now.
*the thought of moving fills me with dread
On 'paper' the choice is obvious, but is there anything I've missed?