I think I probably am BU, but my head is so muddled I'd be grateful for views.
DS will be 17mo when I return to work, part-time for 2 days a week. DH will switch to working 5 days in 4 and will look after DS one day a week. DM has kindly offered to look after him for the remaining day.
Even though this set-up sounds great, I still can't help but feel awful about leaving my PFB. The money I earn will effectively be our pocket money, as we can survive on DH's salary. Money would be very tight and we would have very few treats/outings etc. we would have to budget meal plan and limit petrol etc. My 2 day a week salary will give us a few more options financially.
I do miss working, even though I've loved being at home with DS and I don't feel ready to leave my job completely. Also, can see a point in the future, post-babies when I would want to try and progress in my career.
I just feel so guilty for leaving him. Even though he will be with people he loves. Does it get easier?
Just realised this probably shouldn't be in AIBU. Apologies.