People feel very strongly about all sorts of things.
Many stalkers feel very strongly the object of their romantic obsession is genuinely in love with them, or would be given the chance.
Suicide bombers feel so strongly their cause is just they will literally die for it.
Incels and manosphere truly believe women exist to obey men.
It doesn't make them right.
Assuming you are telling the trruth, all we can say for sure is that your subconscious sees something in "women" it strongly identifies with.
We can't say if it's a real chacteristic of women that is being identified with, or a projection you place on the opposite sex because of associations and connections produced by your own mind (and these may not be obvious stereotypes either - minds can create a very personal inner symbolism).
But what we can say is (1) that whatever it is you feel is not the same thing as being of female body and it is simply unreasonable to expect society to pretend it is, and (2) while you may believe this thing is fundamental and essential to being a woman in a way that the sex of the body is not, many, probably most, women do not agree or even recognise whatever it is you are defining us by.