Five stone in six months before.

[violetsun]

Four years ago 15 and half stone.
Started lighter life from 14.13 and got to 10 stone 2.
Couldn't do again!
Now almost 14 stone.
In my late fifties and feel/look bad/old.
Can't get that motivation and willpower to lose weight again. Lose a few pounds and put back on.
Clothes feel uncomfortable.
I feel breathless/old/ugly/out of control.
Dieting feels slow and overwhelming and like I am never going get there.
Just need help please. Feel depressed as skin white and I have bad leg veins so just feel gross especially in summer as want to wear shorts as even overweight people have legs with no marks but my leg's horrible. I hate my appearance and need to help myself but out of control and work clothes really uncomfortable.
Just can't get that willpower or switch to do it like I used to.

Bad day ended up eating two shortbread biscuits and two jam donuts on top of my meals.
I don't know where I am going get this willpower from.
Only just started for the millionth time.
I can't get the mindset these days.
I'm not feeling good.
Food is like a drug to me then I feel bad after.
Why can't I get that willpower again.

OP the only way I can lose weight is when I don't buy crisps, biscuits etc. DH and I are on a diet and we don't buy snacks and treats. He's lost 2 1/2 stone and I've lost 3 stone in last 3 months.

Well done to you both.
That's a fantastic weightloss.

Thanks to everyone who has given me advice on here. I really appreciate it and everyone taking time to write it down.
After thinking about it I am not in right mindset at the moment so going to close thread as just can't do it.
I have had a lot going on in last few years and thought I was ready to tackle my weight again but j just can't yet.
You are all great trying to help me and telling me your stories too which are inspiring.
Sorry
Good luck everyone and thanks again for all the advice and tips which I will hopefully use in future when I sort myself out.