BigMoFos Week 54

[JackieNo]

Fresh thread for a new week.

I'm hiding too.

I really am crap at losing weight.

And far too good at binge-eating.

Hate myself for it even as I'm shovelling the crap in.

Feck.

Me too WWB

I have been Really Really Bad

I got home yesterday after spending a few days looking after a friend who has just had an op and can't lift her dd, and was paid in wine and chocolate

Thing is, i generally beat myself up about the binges afterwards

And me.

I used to go into autopilot as I shopped for food to binge on - I'd get home and wonder how I ended up with all that food in my bags - but now I don't; I beat myself up as I plan a binge, I beat myself up for shopping for it, I beat myself up as I'm eating it, I beat myself up afterwards.

And then a couple of days later I go and do it all again.

Sometimes it's every day. It has been for the last week and a half. You would be disgusted at the amount I've eaten.

If I keep eating like this it will end up killing me. But even that's not stopping me.

oh I forgot to email or anything
anyway am the same this week
could be a LOT worse have had a shite week & have also been hiding from - well, everything really
this is probably the wrong thread but I only have about 5 mins to mnet....

Think we all need to pick ourselves up; dust ourselves off; and start all over again lalala...

Erm, just no major targets during half term, though - limited achievement only possible at half term. Could aim for improvement in mood and being nice to self? Anyone else on for that?

We do a bit, don't we Fauve. And yes - being nice to ourselves (preferably in non-food ways) during half term would be good.

I haven't exactly been hiding but forgot to weigh (probably because I knew I hadn't lost) and had an MN meet up at my house last night (am I mad?) so was a bit overwehlemed with cleaning and stuff.

I should do the weight but haven't the energy (blame the west London crowd) yet

I might get round to doing the weights later Kewcumber. You're definitely very brave having a meet-up at your house - I think the West London group has quite a lot of people, doesn't it.

Have just finished mowing the lawn and doing a bit of weeding. Also had a free air display, including some fighter planes and the Red Arrows, who were performing at an air show near us. We considered going, but a family ticket cost £60 so we decided against it. And we could see loads from the fields just behind our house, so taht worked well.

No idea why this randomly jumped into my mind, but if you're Kewcumber, does that make your DS Gherkin, or possibly Cornichon?

there were 14 of us - for some reason all standing in my (not particularly big) kitchen most of the night. They tried to stay and help tidy up but as it was midnight I threw them out so I could go to bed!

The gherkin thing did occur to me too

What is it about kitchens, eh. Hope you've recovered now.

OK - this week's weights. Not a lot of people signing in , so it didn't take very long to do:

Whoopsfallenoveragain: -5 (total -17)
agalch: -.5 (total -25)
JackieNo: -.5 (total -.5)
EllieG: stayed the same (total -1.5).

So an enormous sparkly crown for whoopsfallenoveragain, and a kick up the bum to the rest of us.

And a new thread for this week.