My boy is 21 years old, 17 h ISH. I've had him 5 years but I've known him for 8. 2 years ago he damaged his DDFT. It has never really healed and this summer he has suffered with it because of the ground. I'd made the decision to let him have the summer on bute then put him down. 2 days ago he was kicked on the forearm of the same leg and it is deep and despite best efforts is infected, plus his tendon has blown. I'm having him put down at 7 am tomorrow I'm in bits. I'm a groom - have work with horses all my life and lost a few of my own but this is flooring me. He is so so gentle and lovely and I adore him but I don't want him in pain any more. He is on cloud nine tonight on painkillers.
I don't even know why I'm posting really. Just need to feel not so alone I guess.