Guess I need some encouragement really. DS16 being horrendous. Following me around insulting me, barged doors open to follow me, trapped me from getting up, wouldnt leave me alone even when I was begging him to, being generally disruptive, trying to wind other family members up, arguing everything, tore a paper up and threw it over my head, said I was the worst possible mother, said he absolutely hates me- said with absolute hatred. This has happened a few times now. I am at the point where I just cannot go on. Actually felt suicidal today. Actually dread going home.