Feeling totally overwhelmed and cant see how I can go on like this

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Guess I need some encouragement really. DS16 being horrendous. Following me around insulting me, barged doors open to follow me, trapped me from getting up, wouldnt leave me alone even when I was begging him to, being generally disruptive, trying to wind other family members up, arguing everything, tore a paper up and threw it over my head, said I was the worst possible mother, said he absolutely hates me- said with absolute hatred. This has happened a few times now. I am at the point where I just cannot go on. Actually felt suicidal today. Actually dread going home.

Is he ok on his own as is there anywhere else you can go? No experience but I wonder whether you should let him see it hurts you and take a break somewhere happier if you have family or a friend nearby .
I’m really sorry as this must feel so hard and he absolutely won’t mean it I don’t think, teens can be very unreasonable and their brains seem quite complicated things

Ask absolutely talk to someone with feeling like this - Samaritans or evening your Gp as it’s so important to have good support . I am thinking of you and hope it gets easier very soon

Growing up for some is hard and expressing such emotions can create such confusion and upset for those they are closest to. I doubt very much he hates you!..Most probably he needs you in a way he doesn't really know how.
You can be strong through this...tell him when he is disrespecting you or challenging your authority as this is not acceptable but that you love him and you will be there when he needs to talk about his thoughts /feelings. Perhaps even just give him a hug?! You are a good mum if you can care enough to reach out for advice here...

Hello OP, we are really sorry to hear you are feeling this way.

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really feel,for,you.. We have had similar issues and is so awful. Things have drastically improved in our home after a bout a year to 18 months but we did end up having to involve SS. My teen had underlying problem that we were unaware of and was just taking it out on us as they couldn’t handle how they felt. would advise calling charities like Family Lives, and speak to the schools pastora care. Please look after yourself but get try to find someone you trust to offload on.

OP please take advice to chat to someone. So sorry you are going through this.

OP how are you today? Thinking of you and hope you are finding support as you aren’t alone and sometimes things can be hard even when you are doing everything right. You will come through this x

Thank you all. Helps to know not alone. Will try to speak to someone in RL though

Hello OP - so sorry you’re feeling this way. Been thinking of you. How are you feeling today? I hope you’ve been able to contact someone in real life about how you’re feeling? Go and stay at a friends? Do you have a male relative/ brother maybe - who could visit and support you with your son? Explain rules and boundaries in your home.
I don’t think for a minute your son hates you. He’s obviously going through his own situation at the moment. But before you can help/ support/ get to the bottom of his situation - you do need to help yourself.

Thinking of you 💕 Be your own best friend - and get some help as soon as you’re able x