Cold turkey- help me when I'm tempted

[rainbowdash17]

I'm about to go cold turkey from cocaine.
It's time to! Definitely
My weak points are when I'm tempted to buy some (usually evenings)

Can I message on here when I'm tempted for a pep talk on why I shouldn't & reassurance that it's ok?
I think it would really help me

Do you reckon we can do this?

So sorry to hear Spun. We're here for you

So sorry spun

Spun, you poor thing. Look after yourself.

..lots of nice things for you, Spun

I hope you're being really kind to yourself and getting some rest. x

Hope everyone else is fine? Feels a bit disrespectful to come on today with our usual chat and jokes but just wanted to check that we're all ok and keeping strong.

Was thinking the same lost, hope you are ok as can be spun, miscarriages are such horrible things....do rest and be gentle with yourself.

If anyone is having a major wobble tonight, and needing to be pulled back out of the water, do just holler......otherwise let's regroup in the next day or two??

I was thinking the exact same thing re: banter. Let's catch up in the week. I can't promise that there won't be another little dabble here but I'm 100% off big benders.

Spun I've been there and I really feel for you

Sounds like a plan. Promise to yell if things are all going a bit pear shaped. Glad we're all ok

Evening 🏄

Spun hope you are ok and getting lots of rest and support, please let us know how you are, and remember there is a place here on the surfboard for when you are ready!

Hope everyone else is ok? We had some rather significant progress in Professor White's household this evening. DH sent our dealer a text very politely requesting he bars both our numbers for a few months as we need to get our heads down. We got the sweetest text back, saying 'of course he would, wished us luck and even god blessed us as well.... now how's about that then? There was me expecting the Latvian mafia to be let loose on us.....

So the hypothesis to be tested this week is: does the lack of access to cocaine make the cravings better, worse or make no darn difference!

Hi everyone. Feeling worse today BUT it's my own fault as last night managed to get three bags for £100 plus two bottles of rose, it's the first time I've done it to block out what's going on in my life and for those few hours it worked, I felt normal. But Jesus H Christ was I feeling sorry for myself on the comedown. Spent all day crying, and to top it off had the worst cramping in my uterus, although nothing seems to have happened yet. I'm really scared of passing it by myself at home, I'm scared it will hurt like labour.

I'm sorry I let everyone down by thinking that falling off the wagon would help. At least now I know it's not worth feeling like this the day after. I'm hoping tomorrow will be a better day.

I feel like I'm bringing the thread down. I'm glad for a place to vent, but feel free to ignore me, and please carry on with the banter!!

Spun so so sorry you feel so bad! You had horrible news yesterday and naturally wanted to block it out any way you could. I almost certainly would have done the same. I am concerned that you are on your own? Really feel you need to have someone with you. Do you have someone you can call?

I had a missed miscarriage at a similar stage to you a few years ago, I asked for tablets to take to bring on the miscarriage (can't remember their name now). The pain was totally bearable, just like period pain. Hope it's the same for you. I hope the comedown is easing off a little this evening. You will be ok, just hang on in there

Spun I'm so glad you've come back to the thread. It's a support thread, say whatever you want, cry, moan and we won't judge.
I can totally understand what you did yesterday. You're having a horrible time and your brain will automatically crave the happy coke feeling. The problem being that those feelings come back as you sober up.

You've probably been more anxious and upset then ever today but remember some of that is the come down. NHS direct 111 will go through any concerns you have, day or night, and it sounds as though flat has experience (condolences Flat ) Miscarriages are sadly very common.

Please don't forget to be kind to yourself. We all want to help you if we can. You won't feel like this forever, it will take time to heal.

flat Blow me down! An understanding drug dealer . That's brilliant news.

I'm going to bed now Spun but please come back in the morning and tell me how you are getting on x

Spun hope you are beginning to feel better than yesterday. Thinking of you

How is everyone else doing?

Hi flat really pleased about your latest development with the staggeringly nice (possibly Christian?) dealer!

I was looking at the Alan Carr method of giving up an addiction yesterday. One of his tips is to concentrate on feeling liberated from your addiction and to strive to be a person that isn't enslaved by it. I've been trying to apply that to my cravings today and get in that mindset. It may help

Have both nieces today so freezing park trip, lunch and Paw Patrol is plan of the day!
Hope everyone else is ok.
Spun We're here if you need us

Hi everyone. Hi nineties, yes feeling a bit more positive today, for the last week or so I have had no energy or motivation to cook proper meals for myself and my DS like I used to. We've been living off frozen pizzas and chicken nuggets, so maybe this afternoon I will make up a proper meal plan and go to Aldi and actually buy some fruit and veg. First step to getting my life back on track!

I don't think either of my dealers would have even bothered replying to a text like that, never mind wishing me good luck

Thanks Lost, yes we were both so tickled by his response, almost wanted to order a few grams just to be polite . It crossed my mind he may be in NA? I think a lot of them use the phrase God bless.

I would ditch the park trip today, it's super cold, is there a library near you? Or a fun home activity like play dough or baking? Then some Paw Patrol? It's lovely you get to see your nieces regularly. My sister is miles away in Lincolnshire. Only get to see my niece and nephew every few weeks.

Could you let me know the title of Alan carrs book?

Spun great to hear you are feeling a little better. Cooking a nice meal for you and your DC sounds a lovely way to look after yourselves.

Spun you're amazing and sounding more positive today. I know what you mean, the dealers I know phone me if I'm not in touch and offer it on tick (not helpful)

flat ordering a couple of grams to be polite you do make me laugh. Library's a good idea. Walking there will burn off some of their energy or I might take scooters.

I was looking at Alan Carr's stuff online. Most of it is geared to giving up smoking but I thought some of it was relevant. I was quite impressed with Chatty Man .

Have a good day surfers.

Ha ha re. Chatty man!! I wonder what his take on addiction would be?. Someone I massively rate is Jason Vale, I read his book how to stop drinking easily, and massively cut down on the booze. Only drink when doing coke now. I wish he would write a book on drug addiction. A lot of his principles can be applied to drugs, however the main sticking point for me is his thoughts on cravings, he says cravings should be just used as a reminder that we no longer need to drink (do drugs).... mmmmm don't think that would cut it for me on a Friday night.

Hi all! Not read all of the updates as am off work poorly and can barely keep my eyes open... I blame serial!!!

Oh no cleaning! Poor you!