Cold turkey- help me when I'm tempted

[rainbowdash17]

I'm about to go cold turkey from cocaine.
It's time to! Definitely
My weak points are when I'm tempted to buy some (usually evenings)

Can I message on here when I'm tempted for a pep talk on why I shouldn't & reassurance that it's ok?
I think it would really help me

Do you reckon we can do this?

Serial, do you think that's true, that the urge never truly leaves you?

Spun it's a depressing thought isn't it, but someone posted on here a while back, saying they are a year post recovery and hardly ever think of it. Have also read that the memory of the high gets much weaker as time goes on.

I think that people get more skilled at fighting the urge as time goes on.

Hope the silence means you are all ok ladeezzzz....

Hello! Been chilling with ds all day. All fine here after my cheeky little fix last night

Hope everyone is happily lounging on the surfboard.

Glad to hear it cleaning...

I'm still coughing all over the surfboard. Cleaning will have her work cut out!

Maybe if I cough over you all it will kill your cravings?!

Me me me cough over me please serial

Glad everyone is alright tonight.
Serial you're better hooray
Cleaning sounds like you've had a lovely chilled out day.
Flat hope you went out and caught crabs and enjoying yourself.
Spun want to hug you.

Meal out was fine, I got through it without having a breakdown under the table was just sick with dread thinking about it this morning.

The comedown from last night was truly horrific, do you think they get worse over time? It just feels like I've used up every ounce of happiness in my brain when I get like that and an awful feeling of Doom is left. (I hope this is putting us all off the thought of a line!)

I'm so sorry I let the surfing squad down. My brain seemed to flip and I didn't fall off the board, I ignored all the danger signs and dived in head first. On purpose! ..and then the viscious circle begins again.

Oh no, serial you're not better, you have a cough. for soothing medicinal purposes.

I was up until 3 this morning coughing instead of snorting! feel so much better in myself this evening though. Glad you survived the meal lost! You'll feel ace tomorrow! I find the comedown totally crippling nowadays. Both physically and mentally. Not had a single craving this evening - which is great!

Glad you feel the same, serial well not glad, it's bloody awful but you know.

You're doing great. My new mantra; Be More Serial (minus the cough)

Pro tips to being serial: Drink wine, smoke fags!

Lost well done for getting through today and not bailing on your family meal, that is a massive achievement. I have cancelled numerous meet ups and social events over the past year, I can't begin to tell you, so I know what a massive effort it would have been for you. The comedowns have definitely got worse for me. Left to my own devices all I can do is lie in bed waiting for the sense of doom to wear off. Like I have said before I know I don't want to die but I do feel like I don't want to be alive for a good few hours. You did well, you got to two weeks, you know the signs, you know what you need to do to get through the cravings, and have proven by virtue of your past that you have the inner strength to change and move forward. Welcome back on board the surf

Serial I'll get the anti bac!

I'm kicking myself that today could have been a full week but I dabbled last night and had a line with a friend. Nothing major but far too much wine no major toppling into ocean but it still counts

Serial! Glad you are on the mend and not having cravings... that's fantastic xx

and occasional talk like Yoda

Cleaning.... tbh I would count it as a week, seriously! You done good girl, you really did x

Sorry, that was a tip for being more like serial.

Looking back on our thread I think amazing progress has been made all round. We can do this. I've got to get off this cycle of keeping straight and then big binge

It's so true about it being a cycle. It was available last night but I only did a bit for that very reason.

We will make it though 💪

Cheers flat but it feels like cheating

Cleaning I would class your slip up as dipping a foot in. Slightly dangerous but you're not going to be swept away on the current and eaten by a shark.

Spending the last two weekends with my lovely family, sober, has been very humbling. Being fully present with them (not just dragging my arse through the day) has been life affirming, it makes me so sad to think how many weekends of joy I have missed out on for the sake of a few hours of an intense, fake, high. I can't think too long on that though, as I reckon the guilt would only drive me further into my addiction. I want my fucking life back.....FUCK YOU COCAINE

Flat - I feel the same. Fuck you coke for stealing my peace of mind. I see it as being like a highly unsuitable yet irresistible boyfriend.

Cleaning - one line is nothing. You stopped at that instead of going on a mad one. I couldn't! I'd have gone full Dyson!