I've always said and believed that if I man hit me that would be the end, and I would leave, but I never imagined it would happen after 10 years together and with 2 children, a business, and a huge mortgage on a just-moved-into new house.
On Monday night we had a row, which basically boiled down to me not have the same ambitions/ideas for our business as he does. He had drunk a couple of beers and a bottle of wine, but was by no means wasted. he just got really really angry. I laughed at something he said, and he smashed his wine glass against the wall and kicked me very hard on the thigh and threw something at me. Then he screamed at me to go away. I went and shut myself in the children's bedroom with them and stayed there.
He is genuinely sorry and very ashamed. It has never happened before, and he says he doesn't understand what happened to him.
I am so unbelievably angry. I haven't been able to tell anyone, and I've had to lie to my friends about why I'm limping. My thigh really Fing hurts, and everytime I move I'm reminded of what he did. But I don't want his behaviour to ruin everything we've got. I don't want to rip my kids' world apart because he was a shit. But I don't know if I can trust him anymore.