pushed him too far :o(

[inpieces]

am a regular and namechanged for this

DP declared yesterday that he loves me but i have pushed him away and he doesnt know if we are going to make it.
We have 2 beautiful children together, but things have got in a rut.....i have been suffering from depression and am on medication which hasn't been easy but he feels that i have pushed him out of my life and doesnt know if he wants us to work it out. he is here for the time being but it is cutting me up not knowing.
I dont know whether to fight for him or let him leave

[fawkeoff]

i know i cant afford to fuck up on the exams becuase i have worked hard all year....im going with him to his grans funeral to pay my last respects,think it will be much easier after that.

[lucyellensmum]

what exams are you doing?

[fawkeoff]

my G.C.S.E s i have my first 2 next tuesday,im just going to have to bite the bullet and do my best, there is no point in chucking a whole year out of the window is there

[lucyellensmum]

you'll be fine, of course you do realise that you wont be able to stop, i went back to college to do my GCSEs, they wouldnt let me, didnt think id cope, so had to do a GNVQ - access course, degree and PhD later - and im a SAHM but i loved the study, its like a bug as you get older.

[trulymadlydeeply]

No there isn't! You go and get those exams and prove to yourself and to others that you can do it!

And then you can decide where to go with the rest of your life.

Depression is hard on the whole family, but small steps ... you can do it!

Good luck.

[littlewoman]

I'm sorry for your situation, FawkeOff. It's a horrible time when you first split. Someone you know so well becomes a total stranger to you. It's really quite a surreal feeling.

Wishing you well with your exams. At least they give you a point of focus at the moment. Also wishing you some peace of mind ((()))