I just cannot bear being around him, I feel disgusted by him in every possible way. I cannot believe I was fooled by such a horrible and nasty person. We are worlds apart, we have absolutely nothing in common apart from our upbringing (single parent families).
I hate my life and I dont think I will ever be happy. everyday is a mental struggle, I dont know what his mood is like, I feel trapped in the house most days, when I do go out, all it takes is a call or text from him ruin it. Over the past 5 years he has done so much to me that I think I'm starting to block stuff out. He has blocked all his family so no one knows what his life is like or what mine is like.
I have no one apart from my amazing little boy, he is my life.